Give your heart a break
Had there not been that inner battle and that inner storm, you might not have sought refuge in Allah.
You might have felt safe on your own.
[Yasmin Mogahed]
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It has been quite some time since I last realised that it is through pain that we finally turn to Him. It's human nature, no matter how you find it's ironic, most people will not turn to Him when they are happy but when they are in pain that they will seek Him. And I am one of them. There were days when I just couldn't smile but it was only when I smile that I could get a smile in return. There were days when I just couldn't laugh but it was only when I laugh with my friends that I could make others laugh with me. I know that not only me who feel this way and I know that there are many of us who face some kind of inner battle and inner storm in us. We bleed and we cry. We are human after all. We are not superhumans. Even Superman does have a weakness.
It was hot, these few days. It rained too these few days. Two of the opposite extremes. Just like the two opposite extremes in me, in us for the past few weeks. We are sad, disappointed, lonely and stressed, yet we are also happy, blessed and loved. These two opposites take over one another at times. That is why people just can't figure out me, can't figure out us. We have a hard time pleasing everyone, taking care of everyone's heart, taking care of people's expectation. But, in doing so, are we not bleed? Are we not tired? Please spare us, please try to understand us, understand me. We need a break. I need a break from all this. I need a break to be with my family, to be with Him.
Happy fasting everyone. Let us make the best of the remaining days of this blessed month. May Allah's mercy and blessings always be upon you, me and us.
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We synthesize happiness, but we expect happiness is something to be found.
: 11th August 2012.
: 04.11 p.m.
: Malaysia.
: Happy birthday, August people. You guys are awesome in your own way :)
