Separuh Aku.

Dengar laraku, suara hatiku memanggil namamu

It has been almost two weeks. Oh okay, let me calculate again. One week and two days maybe? Huh? Of what? Ohhhh my bad. The practicum, dear. It has been one week and two days of practicum as an English teacher in a secondary school somewhere near the beach in Kelantan. Fuhhh. How was it, you asked? So far so good, well, despite the ups and downs, despite the relief classes and well the unexpected as well. Oh, so many well oh I can just jump into the well. Well well well. 

School is okay. The library is yet to be opened but no worries, it is not the end of the world. The good thing is, the school is new and the field is soooooo big. Not that I will use it for my English lessons but hey, it's a big green field that we are talking about here. Go greeeeeennnnnnn ahhahaha :D 

Students? Well, they are not robots I assure you so that means they are humans. Humans are unpredictable. So yeah, the students are unpredictably interesting. 

Lessons? Ahha. Let's not go too much into that area. A ha ha haaa :D But, honestly, teaching is fun...if you know how to enjoy every bits of it. This practicum period is tough and will be tougher in the coming days (please read: Sports Day, co-curricular activities, meetings etc), so do send every one of us prayers. Let's pray for the best for all of us. Be strong, girls and guys! :)

Will we be like this in the future, dear fellow English teachers? Ahha.

: 21st January 2013.

: 11.30 p.m.

: Kelantan, Malaysia.

: I should do lesson plans but here I am, wasting my time. Ahha.

It's raining and I have a new wiper yeaaahhhhhh

Kerna separuh aku, dirimu

As I was planning for my English lessons, the radio that I have been listening to since the beginning of the lesson planning played this song. And since that, I have been listening to this song until I-don't-know-how-many times. Ahha. 

Adakah ini gara-gara tekanan yang menerjah jiwa?

Mungkin...

: 20th January 2013.

: 10.45 p.m.

: Kelantan, Malaysia.

: I was feeling a bit cheesy. I probably need more sleep.

That line.

Benar apa kau ucapkan dulu

: 10th January 2013.

: 11.30 p.m.

: Kelantan, Malaysia.

: I should have not listened. I need a hug.

Total craziness.

Cintaku terasa sempurna kerna hatimu

one slice. two. three.
four.
five.
and "crack". 

do you hear that? 

that's the sound of
my
heart
breaking. 

[Miss Penggemar Biskut Bijan]

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coffee on the table.
oh, the smell
makes me wonder
do you as well?

[Miss Penggemar Biskut Bijan]

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tick, tock, tick, tock
it's the sound of something
tick, tock, tick, tock
oh! again!
what's that
can you hear it?
tick, tock, tick, tock
once again!
can you guess what is that?

[Miss Penggemar Purple]

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Zzzz
I see you sleep
It's a secret that I'll keep

[Mr. New Ipad] 

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: 7th January 2013.

: 11.43 p.m.

: Kelantan, Malaysia.

: The above poems were spontaneously written by me

and fellow friends in the class this evening.
Bajet poem lettew padahal tak ahhaa.

Sometimes you miss the memories, not the person.

Walau ku tau kau tak sempurna

Most of the time

I try to convince myself

That the future is yet to come;

But someone should remind me:

Yesterday was once future too;

Tomorrow soon will past,

And I still haven't moved from here.

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"In order to move on, you must understand why you felt what you did
and why you no longer need to feel it."

[Mitch Albom, Five People You Meet in Heaven]

: 5th January 2013.

: 11.53 p.m.

: Kelantan, Malaysia.

: All of the sudden, my heart betrayed me.

Let your spirit take flight.

Just a smile and the rain is gone

taken from: tumblr

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“Make things easy and convenient and don’t make them harsh and difficult. 

Give cheer and glad tidings and do not create hatred.”

— Rasullulah s.a.w. [Riyadh Us-Saliheen, Vol 1:637]

: 4th January 2013.

: 10.30 p.m.

: Kelantan, Malaysia.

: Our humble house got a lovely visitor. Welcome :)

Of that girl and a thirsty dog.

Tuhan, jagakan dia

"The planet does not need more 'successful people'. The planet desperately needs more peacemakers, healers, restorers, storytellers and lovers of all kinds. It needs people to live well in their places. It needs people with moral courage willing to join the struggle to make the world habitable and humane and these qualities have little to do with success as our culture is the set."

[Tenzin Gyatso, The 14th Dalai Lama]

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It was raining throughout the day. Instead of having an afternoon nap, I decided to do some blog walking and I came across a touching and eye-opener blog entry. The entry is about those prostitutes who are forced to be in that kind of business. The writer shares her conversation with her friend regarding that issue. I found the conversation interesting as they both commented on how these girls are actually morally good and have more humanistic values in comparison to those who are perceived as good or religious by the society. They noted how some respected and religious people often think themselves as noble and tend to judge others. Mudah menghukum daripada cuba memahami. But hey, it's not just only them. Believe it or not, we too do the same. We tend to judge people and think bad of them when they do something wrong. The writer and her friend both believe that rather than to simply judge, we must learn to think good about these people. Husnu dzon. Bersangka baik. Probably they have problems, and probably they are forced. Probably they want to stop being that but they don't know how. Probably they are waiting for help but it never came. Probably. We don't know. But you know what is wrong with most people nowadays? Stigma and mentality.

"Dengan salah dan dosa ini, betapa harus selalunya engkau merendahkan hatimu, setiap masa, di mana-mana." 

(Si Gadis Sajak)

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Hadis Abu Hurairah r.a: Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. bersabda:  

"Sesungguhnya seorang wanita pelacur melihat seekor anjing sedang mengelilingi sebuah telaga pada hari yang sangat panas. Anjing itu berusaha menjelirkan lidahnya keran kehausan. Beliau kemudian menggunakan kasutnya yang dibuat dari kulit iaitui khuf untuk mengambil air telaga tersebut sehingga anjing tadi dapat minum. Oleh kerana perbuatannya itu, dosa wanita tersebut diampunkan." 

Riwayat Muslim.

[Subhanallah, betapa kasihnya Dia pada hambaNya yang berkasih sayang. Walau terhadap haiwan.]

: 3rd January 2013.

: 04.15 p.m.

: Kelantan, Malaysia.

: Oh, hello 2013. Hello rain. Hopefully hujan rahmat, insyaAllah. :)