Eye candy.

Chajatta nae sarang

: 30th May 2011.

: 11.08 p.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: Oh, my eyes.

How can you be messy and charm your way into my guarded heart?

Soulmate?

I'm listening to: One Love

taken from: creampuff.tumblr.com

: A pious woman is for a pious man.

And a pious man is for a pious woman.

If he is not dutiful to God, he will not be dutiful to you.

Rhapsody.

picture taken from tumblr.com. credit to the owner.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ei1a203c2mM&

: Hasbunallah wa nikmal wakil. 

Cukuplah Allah bagi kami dan Dialah sebaik-baik tempat diserahkan urusan.

A messed up me.

I'm watching: Returning to Allah

Our background and circumstances may influence who we are,

but we are responsible for who we become.

: I am such a failure. I know.

Sorry for being one.

God Willing, I'll try my best to not be one.

Al-fatihah.

.

"Di antara orang-orang yang beriman itu, ada yang bersikap benar menunaikan apa yang telah dijanjikannya kepada Allah (untuk berjuang membela Islam); maka di antara mereka ada yang telah selesai menjalankan janjinya itu (lalu gugur syahid), dan di antaranya ada yang menunggu giliran dan mereka pula tidak mengubah (apa yang mereka janjikan itu) sedikitpun." [33:23]

Innalillahi wainna ilahiroji'un. Salam takziah sahabat. Moga arwah ditempatkan di kalangan orang-orang beriman, dan moga Allah merahmati keluargamu. Doa anak soleh takkan putus. Kuat! *peluk dari jauh*

: Sorry I can't be there next to you now. 
But my prayers will. Al-fatihah.

Be strong dear. Allah loves him more.

Unintended.

I'm listening to: Unintended

The language of friendship is not words but meanings. 

- Henry David Thoreau

45 years old me.

 I smile reading this. 

"One day when I'm like 45, I'm gonna log onto my blogger, for the first time in who knows how long it'll be by then, and read all of my posts. Every single one. And I'm probably gonna either laugh at how ridiculous I was, or cry because I'll never be this young and naive again."

: 20th May 2011.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: We are young once, aren't we? 

So, why don't we make the best of it? 

Let us do so, so that we won't feel regret meeting Him one day, insyaAllah. 

Coffee Splash

(picture credit)

Discover the 90/10 Principle.
It will change your life (at least the way you react to situations).
What is this principle? 10% of life is made up of what happens to you. 90% of life is decided by how you react.
What does this mean? We really have no control over 10% of what happens to us.
We cannot stop the car from breaking down. The plane will be late arriving, which throws our whole schedule off. A driver may cut us off in traffic.

We have no control over this 10%. The other 90% is different. You determine the other 90%. 

How? ……….By your reaction.

You cannot control a red light. but you can control your reaction. Don't let people fool you; YOU can control how you react.
Let's use an example.
You are eating breakfast with your family. Your daughter knocks over a cup of coffee onto your business shirt.
You have no control over what just happened.

What happens next will be determined by how you react. 

  

You curse. 

You harshly scold your daughter for knocking the cup over. She breaks down in tears. After scolding her, you turn to your spouse and criticize her for placing the cup too close to the edge of the table. A short verbal battle follows. You storm upstairs and change your shirt. Back downstairs, you find your daughter has been too busy crying to finish breakfast and get ready for school. She misses the bus.

Your spouse must leave immediately for work. You rush to the car and drive your daughter to school. Because you are late, you drive 40 miles an hour in a 30 mph speed limit.
After a 15-minute delay and throwing $60 traffic fine away, you arrive at school. Your daughter runs into the building without saying goodbye. After arriving at the office 20 minutes late, you find you forgot your briefcase. Your day has started terrible. As it continues, it seems to get worse and worse. You look forward to coming home.
When you arrive home, you find small wedge in your relationship with your spouse and daughter.
Why? …. Because of how you reacted in the morning.
Why did you have a bad day?

A) Did the coffee cause it?
B) Did your daughter cause it?
C) Did the policeman cause it?
D) Did you cause it? 

The answer is “D".

You had no control over what happened with the coffee. How you reacted in those 5 seconds is what caused your bad day.

Here is what could have and should have happened.

Coffee splashes over you. Your daughter is about to cry. You gently say, "Its ok honey, you just need to be more careful next time". Grabbing a towel you rush upstairs. After grabbing a new shirt and your briefcase, you come back down in time to look through the window and see your child getting on the bus. She turns and waves. You arrive 5 minutes early and cheerfully greet the staff. Your boss comments on how good the day you are having.
Notice the difference?
Two different scenarios. Both started the same. Both ended different.
Why?
Because of how you REACTED.

You really do not have any control over 10% of what happens. The other 90% was determined by your reaction.

Here are some ways to apply the 90/10 principle. 

If someone says something negative about you, don't be a sponge. Let the attack roll off like water on glass. You don't have to let the negative comment affect you!
React properly and it will not ruin your day. A wrong reaction could result in losing a friend, being fired, getting stressed out etc.
How do you react if someone cuts you off in traffic? Do you lose your temper? Pound on the steering wheel? A friend of mine had the steering wheel fall off) Do you curse? Does your blood pressure skyrocket? Do you try and bump them?
WHO CARES if you arrive ten seconds later at work? Why let the cars ruin your drive?
Remember the 90/10 principle, and do not worry about it.

You are told you lost your job.
Why lose sleep and get irritated? It will work out. Use your worrying energy and time into finding another job.
The plane is late; it is going to mangle your schedule for the day. Why take outpour frustration on the flight attendant? She has no control over what is going on.
Use your time to study, get to know the other passenger. Why get stressed out? It will just make things worse.

Now you know the 90-10 principle. Apply it and you will be amazed at the results. You will lose nothing if you try it. The 90-10 principle is incredible. Very few know and apply this principle.

The result?
Millions of people are suffering from undeserved stress, trials, problems and heartache. We all must understand and apply the 90/10 principle.
It CAN change your life!!! 

Enjoy

This whole article is taken from: Productive Muslim

By the way, this whole post is directed solely for my own self, a person whose action is usually ridiculous.

: 20th May 2011.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: I've read it in one of my friend's blog. 

Her blog reminds me of everything that I am about to forget.

Thank you dear, may Allah bless you.

Don't give up.

(taken from: loveyourquotes.tumblr.com)

P/S: I love you.

Intuition.

I'm listening to: Intuition

What a word of wisdom you have there, Mr. Atticus Finch.

: Does anyone still remember this?

Oh yeah, by the way, I kinda like the drummer. He's cute, isn't he?

Unexpected events.

‎"Allah SWT sometimes takes us into troubled waters. 
Not to drown us, but to cleanse us."

My dearest one, 

Please hang in there. Distance makes me feel very helpless, but I want you to know that I will do everything that I can to protect you. Please hang in there. Allah won't put you into that situation if He doesn't love you. And we, we love you as well. Please, just please, please hang in there. Don't you ever feel you are alone. Allah will always be with you. We will always be there for you. If I can't physically be there for you, my prayers will. So please dear, be strong. Allah knows why things happened that way. So please, have faith in Him and be strong. We love you.

I hope we can be together again, happily teasing each other like always.

Happy birthday mom.
I love you.
I really do.

:Isbir, la tahzan. Innallahu ma'ana.

I am not that strong, but I hope you can be strong dear.
My prayers are with you.

....

Need. this. badly.

: I've been suppressing myself lately.
I might break if this continues.

The replied note.

I'm listening to: Baby Don't Cry

Alhamdulillah, all praise be upon God. I had successfully completed and submitted my assignment. Yeahhhh! Well, since I am in a good mood today, I am more than eager to write my reply to your note. Here it is.

1. Seriously? We both met around 2000? Hahaha, I guess I can't really recall things due to my aging process. Ohh.

2. Hahaha, yeah. 10 years is such a long period dear. Enough to figure out what you have in mind.

3. Oh man, we last met at 2005? Oh no. What happens to my memory?

4. I look like a smart person? Ahahaha. *laughing like crazy*

5. Funny in silence? Me? Nice term there. I like it! :P

6. Yeah, I bet. We both really share the same interest in music since Form 1. If not, why would we trade song lyrics with Miss Siwonnie Lover (bukan nama sebenar) and waste our time copying it. Kekeke~

7. Calm and mature? Ahahaha. I wonder what makes you think so. Hunger-bag?! Manga freak? Seriously I love food, but why hunger-bag? Bunyi macam perut tong je.  Ahahaha. But yeah, I admit I am indeed a manga freak. But being what you called your 'umbrella' is such an honour dear. I can't really be there physically for you but I'll try my best to at least be your shield and shoulder to cry on. After all, that's what friends for, right?

8. Yeah, I know you don't really prefer hugging people, that's why I hug you. I'm a hug freak. Takut tak takut tak takut tak? :P

9. Sengal is my nickname? (-_-")

10. The question is what is one of my weaknesses and you mention four?! Am I such a weakling? :P And why DBSK is in the list? I admit they make my knees weak, especially yeah, you know who, but them as my weakness? (-_-")  Erk.

11. Yeah, I bet. I think my class will be a chaotic one and my students will be as naughty as we were. Oh no, I just don't want to imagine it. 

12. See, I told ya. We were indeed naughty students. But we were not alone. Miss Siwonnie Lover and a few more others are indeed in the list. Hahaha. Nak jugak libatkan diorang sekali tuh. :P

13. 5? Ahaha, I don't really have a favourite number, but yeah, I think 5 is not bad.

14. Red? I guess you probably think I love red because of the red ocean, am I right? But yeah, I like red but my favourite colour (at this moment) is yellow. Heee.

15. Yup, I can't live without food. After all, I am a hunger-bag! :P Laptop? It depends, but yeah, if I'm bored, laptop is definitely my source of entertainment. Correction, laptop with internet connection. :P 

Oh yeah, by the way,  I have another assignment to submit by next week. Please pray for me. I'm afraid my laziness and my habit of procrastinating work will cause me a great suffering like what it did to me in completing the assignment that I had just submitted this morning. I don't want to suffer like that anymore. Oh nooooooo! But yeah, since the submission date is by 20th May, I guess, watching a few drama series and reading a few mangas won't do any harm, right? Heeeeeee.

Note for you.

I'm listening to: The Only Exception

How Well Do I Know You.

1. Where you and I met?
Somewhere over the rainbow. :P Nahh, just kidding. Erm, I guess around 2001? Oh the question is where right? We met each other when we were in the same class, 6 Bitara, remember? Oh, those jolly good times. 

2. How long have you known me?
Let me calculate. Around 10 years? Oh gosh, I feel like an old woman now. :P 

3. The last time we saw each other?
2004, if I'm not mistaken. Before you moved to another school, leaving me.
Wuuwuuuwuuu (T^T) 

4. Your first impression of me upon meeting/seeing me?
Emo. And, erm, a bit difficult-to-approach kind of girl. 

5. Am I funny?
Nah, I'm funnier. :P 

6. What's my favorite music?
All sorts of nonsense that I also listen to. Just name it. But when I think about it again, I think you'll probably enjoy listening to cats' purring more than anything, considering that you are such a cat freak lover. Oh, and yeah, I forgot this one, 'Coagulation' by Super Junior! :P 

7. Choose 5 words that describe me the most.
Emo, lively, unexpected, unique, and erm, lovely? 

8. Have you ever hugged me?
Yes, of course. I love to hug you. Even if you don't like it, I'll make you like it more than anything. Bwahahaha. 

9. If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be?
Weirdo Pae. :P 

10. Tell me 1 of my weakness?
Your ego. Big EGO. See how I capitalise it. Sometimes, I think, you need to level down your ego. Sometimes, okay? 

11. Where do you think I will be in 25 years?
Where? You mean place? Is 'in my heart' can be considered as a place too? If yes, yeahh. In my heart. :P 

12. What is the most memorable event that spent with me, you can never forget?
The day we became the best accomplice ever, hiding the illegal stuffs that we shouldn't bring to school in every possible place that we could think of.
Ahahaha. (Nampak sangat budak-budak nakal kat sekolah dulu.) 

13. What's my favorite number?
Erm, I don't know. I don't really like remembering number. Any number? So, let me just randomly guess. Erm, how about 13? 

14. What's my favorite colour?
Black, I guess, looking at how most of the things that you have are in black. 

15. What are the 2 things i must have and can't live without?
Food and drink. 

16. Will you re-post this so I can fill this out for you?
Yup, that's what I'm doing now. So, you better re-post this for me. Heh. :P

: This is for you, well, you know who you are. 

I've sacrificed my valuable time doing this, 

so, now, you better say thank you and do the same thing to me! :P

Anger.

"Controlling rage is a valuable form of art. 

If you can master it, 

you are truly the master over your ego."

Life's like a boat.

: It's raining outside. Such a cold day, 
but warmth is all I feel right now.

Thank you. I really appreciate it.

Now, all I need is a real warm hug from you.

 Don't worry, I'll come and ask for it.

Self-reminder.

He is our creator and we are His creations, 

so who knows us better than Him?

Forgotten Season.

"Pesan Lukmanul Hakim: 

Wahai anakku, bukanlah suatu kebaikan namanya

 bilamana engkau selalu mencari ilmu tetapi tidak pernah mengamalkannya, 

kerana ia tidak ubah seperti orang yang mencari kayu api, 

tetapi setelah banyak, dia tidak mampu memikulnya, 

padahal dia masih mahu menambahkannya."

[31st October 2008, 17:54 p.m.]

This is your last message to me.

I still keep it no matter how sad I feel when I read it again.

Until now, I just can't get over the fact that

I never had the chance to properly say 'thank you' to you.

But, no matter how desperately I want to,

you are no longer here. 

You just don't know how painful I feel.

Now, after a year, I guess, I should let it go, 
shouldn't I?

Thank you for everything. 

May Allah bless your soul.

Thank you.

Al-Fatihah.

: Clouds remind me of you.
Until we meet again.

Friends forever, insyaAllah.

I'm listening to: Someday

Closeness doesn't come when you’re together.

It comes when you’re apart and realise that despite not seeing,

You never stop REMEMBERING.

One of my friends made this six years ago. 

Dear, do you miss me? Well, I miss you.

And I miss our class. 

4 Ibnu Khaldun.

My dear friends, 

wherever you are,  

may Allah bless you.

: 1st May 2011.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: Someone uploaded pictures of my old notes to her. 

Those simple notes that bring me back to the old times.

Oh, how I miss those times.

And how I miss you.