It's raining and I have a new wiper yeaaahhhhhh

Kerna separuh aku, dirimu

As I was planning for my English lessons, the radio that I have been listening to since the beginning of the lesson planning played this song. And since that, I have been listening to this song until I-don't-know-how-many times. Ahha. 

Adakah ini gara-gara tekanan yang menerjah jiwa?

Mungkin...

: 20th January 2013.

: 10.45 p.m.

: Kelantan, Malaysia.

: I was feeling a bit cheesy. I probably need more sleep.

What you see isn't everything.

They say love is blind, oh baby you're so blind

..........................

Enough of Oppa Gangnam Style, people. Music is not only that. This is music. 

Ohhhh, Mr Gee D~ *melting* 

Okay, I'm being biased, but hey, you can't blame me. 

I haven't watch any videos of him for months okay.

: 1st September 2012.

: 11.58 p.m.

: Malaysia.

: Heavy rain, windy night with an 'ayu' knight under a cute Korean umbrella.

How old is your soul?

So let's set the world on fire

"You know that place between sleeping and awake, 

that place where you can still remember dreaming? 

That's where I'll always think of you."

Peter Pan, J.M Barrie.

........................

Maybe, maybe, maybe, and if wishes were horses, I'd gallop.

: 21st May 2012.

: 01.06 p.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: Counting days, and counting memories.

Where to, miss? Hyun Bin's side.

That man cries as he smiles

I have replayed this song for quite some time (since yesterday, to be honest with). At first, I thought it was because one of my friends kept singing it when I met her until it was stuck in my head. But just now, I realised that it was not the case. 

I keep listening to this song because I feel pathetic, just like that man in the song. 

What I need the most at this very moment is shown from minute 4:05 to 4:08 in this video.

: 13th May 2012.

: 11.11 p.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: Benarlah apa hang cakap, bila kita sedih,
kita tend untuk dengar lagu sedih. *sigh

Durudurudurudu no, no.

Say no,no,no,no,no,no tell me why

No words needed.
Only a warm hug,
and a cute drummer's smile.

...................

Allah itu baik bukan sebab Dia tidak pernah menguji kita.

Tetapi adalah kerana setiap kali Dia menguji kita,

Dia akan memberikan kita bahagia.

Tidak di dunia,

di akhirat sana.

-Hilal Asyraf

: 30th March 2012.

: 01.22 p.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: Just because.

My other half, this song is for you.

Pray for me that I won't fall

Even though I haven't met you yet, this song is what I feel like saying to you right now.

.....................


Once, someone asked me what is the first question that I will ask my other half. 
I didn't have the question back then, but now I think I have.


"What does being a muslim mean to you?"

: 9th March 2012.

: 01.05 p.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: I am an imperfect human being.

When you lose something you cannot replace.

The Uses of Sorrow
(In my sleep I dreamed this poem)

Someone I loved once gave me

a box full of darkness. 

It took me years to understand

that this, too, was a gift.

.......................


(2: 286)

I need a warm hug. Do you need one too?

: 23rd February 2012.

: 04.35 p.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: I called my grandma, for the very first time since that day.

Rainbow.

After the rain, everybody watches the rainbow with smiles

[credit to the owner]

: 8th October 2011.

: 08.48 p.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: Alhamdulillah, despite the weather, today was great.

Jpop: Code.

今以上を欲しがる僕は　世間しらずなガキですか？
Ima ijyou wo hoshigaru boku wa seken shirazu na gaki desu ka
Am I naïve for wanting more than I have now?  

求めるよりも与えろと諭すのですか？
Motomeru yorimo ataero to satosu no desu ka
Are you going to suggest that I should be giving instead of receiving?  

永遠なんて無いよと牽制してもいい
Eien nante naiyo to kensei shitemo ii
You can warn me that there is no such thing as forever,  

でも僕はね光ってみたい共に
Demo boku wa ne hikatte mitai tomoni
But I want to shine with you, 

 例え一瞬だけでも
Tatoe isshun dakedemo
Even if it's just for a moment.

: 10th March 2011.
: Plymouth, U.K.
: 01.55 a.m.
: I want to spend my free time watching Ouran High School anime after this. 

Kinda miss Honey-senpai and his "honto?". Kawaii~

But when I think again, I have a few assignments to be completed. Oh.

Le Ballon rouge.

Le Ballon rouge.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h483u_HQxns&feature=related

Le Ballon rouge is a 1956 fantasy short film, directed by French filmmaker Albert Lamorisse.

"Pascal, a young Parisian boy, retrieves a red balloon tied to a lamppost,
only to discover that it seems to have a mind and personality of its own.
At times the balloon follows him around like a loyal dog, at others like a teasing best friend.
The two form an almost inseparable bond, one that only an uncaring world would dare to break."


Oh, this film is so simple yet touching. 

...............................................................................................

My Red Balloon.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XVU5TCwG_ZE&feature=related

"7 years together. Red balloons. Red ocean."

Happy anniversary, 
TVXQ/DBSK/Tohoshinki.

: 26th December 2010.

: 06.12 p.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

:  Even though my favourite colour is actually yellow, I just love red balloon. 
By the way, the title is in French which means; The Red Balloon. 

Stand by me.

taken from: tumblr.com (credit to the owner)

"My silence spoke a thousand words...but you never heard them."

Don't cry.

I'm listening to: Cracks of My Broken Heart

Don't cry dear.

Uljima!

Please don't cry.

*hug*

: 21st December 2010.

: 00.36 a.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: Finally, after almost two years, I managed to hear his voice once again. 
And from today onwards, I will be able to listen to them. 
Should I cry?

Because You Are A Man.

A perfect reason to smile.
You,
and your smile.

"I smile and I feel good. You smile and I feel better." 

: 09th December 2010.

: 02.31 a.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: I think I am addicted to hot mocha. And yeah, I think I am wasting my time now. *sigh* (-_-")

Like Crazy.

I'm listening to: Like Crazy

"I know I have to finish it, but I just can't. I'm too tired to finish it. So, can you help me instead?"

: 8th December 2010.

: 03.56 p.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: Today, the sun shines brightly. Even it is just for a while, Alhamdulillah. Praise be upon God.

Trauma.

I'm listening to: You Wouldn't Answer My Calls

For those who had once encountered a certain failure or lost or tragedy, they will always have this kind of feeling.

Trauma.

Me?

Yes, I had a trauma.

A trauma in completing my work, especially assignment.

Of course. Who wouldn't feel such trauma especially after a few series of unfortunate events happened just because of assignments.

Okay, here goes my series of unfortunate events in the history of completing assignments.

First; after writing for hours and hours non-stop (okay, I'm exaggerating here), the laptop suddenly goes blank. What more if you forgot to save the work beforehand and by the time you search for the auto save version, then only you realise that you forgot to programme your laptop to auto save your work. Well, whether you like it or not, you just have to write it all again. Urgh, I hate this kind of thing.

Second; well, I guess most of us had faced this kind of thing at least once. The printer suddenly goes 'crazy' and betrays us especially when we want to print the assignment as the dateline is on the very same day. Or the next day. Oh, it is so frustrating, right? Huh, this is the last thing that I want it to happen on the day of submission.

Third; when you have put all your effort in designing things involving technology, then suddenly the system backfires you. By the time you try to restore things back and look for back-ups, pity you, you find nothing. You have no other option than having to start things from scratch. That's the hardest and the saddest part ever. 

These are the things that I encountered in my history of completing assignments. So, don't blame me for being so traumatised. 

Well, God won't test those who cannot bear it. 

He knows that I can go through all of these, that's why He chose me. 

So, I must be strong and grateful at the same time. 

Why? Because, out of many people out there, I am chosen. 

Be strong and trust Him. 

For every mishap, there is a blessing a disguise. Trust Him!

[Tahukah kamu bahawa ujian itu juga adalah salah satu bentuk tarbiyah dariNya?] 

: 6th December 2010.

: 07.20 p.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: For those who face any of the things above, be patient. Isn't God will always be among those who are patient? But still, next time, be prepared for the worst. Who knows what kind of things will happen. So, be prepared.

Rainbow.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dsnqAV9FUVY

After every rain, there will be a rainbow. 

 

: 4th December 2010.

: 01.19 a.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: It's raining outside. 

Oh, so gothic!

Gothic.

How do you define gothic?

You are asking me?

Hehehe. My definition of gothic will be this MV~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aUiMaz4BNKw&feature=related

Opps, it's a Korean song.

Sorry, I can't help it. 

In case you don't know, I am more into Kpop, Jpop, anime series, manga and things like that. 

They are all my cup of tea. I mean, my interests.
I just can't pretend that I don't like them.
However, it doesn't mean that I don't look at other things apart from them.
I do, but probably because I don't explicitly show that I do, it seems like I don't.
But I do look at other things as well!
Oh, how should I explain this?
...
...

Hey, I believe you have your own interests too, right?
So, you should know what I mean!
Heh.

Oh, so gothic!

"I used to touch the sky, but now I'm down to the floor." 

: 30th November 2010.

: 01.24 a.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: Suddenly I'm thinking of watching an old Korean drama series; Full House. Oh no dear, you have a bundle of work to do! Please restrain yourself! Huh.

Candles.

Pernah langkahku payah

Menuju ke destinasi

Kerana malam gelap

Dan bintang hilang kerdipnya

Menjadikan arahku keliru

Ke timur atau ke barat

Bagai lilin membakar diri

Menerangi kegelapan hati

Kau curahkan bakti dan budi

Jasamu tiada berganti

Namun tanpa rasa payah

Dia memimpin tanganku

Melangkah satu persatu

Dan mencipta jejak impian

Menjadikan arahku jelas

Aku harus ke hadapan

Ohoo... aku kini rindu

Pada satu nama yang berjasa

Tuhan... beri kekuatan

Untuk mendidikku selamanya

Ku pohon restu kasihmu

Ampunkanlah guru-guruku

Semalam ku lihat dia

Di bibirnya ada kalimah

Yang bergetar saban waktu

Sambil tangan menggenggam lilin

Lilin yang tiada terpadam

Menerangi hidupku kini

Song title: Lilin Seorang Guru

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SvBJR9YvVZ8&feature=related

*The very same song my schoolmates would sing every Teachers' Day in my former secondary school. 
Dear Irshadians, don't you guys miss to hear this song performed on our school stage again? 
If you guys don't, I do.

: 29th November 2010.

: 10.51 p.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: Suddenly thinking of this song. 
I don't have to wait for a specific day like Teachers' Day to post this song, do I? 
Seriously, I miss all my teachers. I tried to remember all those faces and names but I just couldn't do so.
Dear teachers, no matter who or where you are, I pray that you will always be blessed by Him. 
Thanks for who I am now.

My Mom is Amazing.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BumWAcktEbU&feature=related

I love the lyrics of this song.

Why?

Because my mom is amazing!

But, as I listen to the ending of this song, the last few sentences of the lyrics struck me.

Try listening to this song and you will know.

: 28th November 2010.

: 10.00 p.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: Thank you Allah for my mother. 
Please take a good care of her just like she takes a good care of me since I was small. 
No, my mistake. I take that back. 
Please take a good care of her more than she takes care of me. 
Why? Because, I love her so much. As much as she loves me. 

Caramel.

Each day, I notice that there will be times where people will definitely talk about love, relationship and marriage. Well, after going through so many things, I just don't know what to comment on. I just don't feel like doing so at the moment.

There are many people out there who are always worried about things like this.
Without any doubt, I am one of them.
I bet you too.

But hey, why bother worrying about things that God had already planned for us?
The right person will appear. It's only the matter of time.
The time will come. Just keep believing.

In the mean time, while waiting for that right time and person, why don't we make use of the time that we have now to equip ourselves with every criteria needed.
Of course, if you want a good partner, you yourself must be good as well.
Marriage is not a picnic.
Marriage comes with responsibilities. Huge responsibilities.
Oh well. You yourself know what you want.
And you yourself know that things won't come into your hand just like that.
So, off you go and work hard for it!
Heh.

By the way, I find that this song is very cute. Both the MV and lyrics. Hahaha. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zW9GIPfF-mo&feature=related