I didn't mean to scare anyone.

And if you like going places we can't even pronounce [One Direction]

“The resemblance is uncanny,” he stages a whisper but waves at his daughter. 

“You dressed her in her judo uniform to come to ballet class,” Rachel deadpans, futile anger and disbelief simmering under a tight expression. 

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This is me every single time I find a love letter in the class.

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I finally found the online stories with my newest pairing. Stories between an ice queen and a ruthless heir. Yeah, I am into that type of characters now. Blame that online story that I have been waiting for since March last year. I think someone should go and find the author. She can't leave that story hanging. I need to see the end of those two stubborn yet adorable characters. Meanwhile, let me read the interesting banter between that ice queen and ruthless heir. Aishh, such a childish pair yet so alluringly dangerous. Aishh.

: 24th January 2016.

: 11.05 p.m.

: Jeli, Kelantan.

: I found a love letter today. In my Form 1 class. Aishh, kids nowadays.

The phone call that I longed for.

You could be my unintended [Muse]

These two kids are so childish around each other, yet they are alluringly dangerous with other people. Aishhh, what has that story done to me? How can I, of all the characters in the drama, fall in love with these two? They are not even a pair in the drama. Why did I fall for these two villains and want them to be together so much that it hurts my imagination? Oh, my idea of a perfect pairing is getting out of hand now. I seriously need to stop falling for such dark, damaged characters. Or maybe, I should stop reading that story. But I still have ten more chapters to go.

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Someone whom I dear so much called me out of blue. It started with a hot gossip about other people and ended up with more gossips about each other. Oh, love is weird. But I love you hehehe. 

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"I don't even know how to cope with all the scars in my heart,

how will I be able to deal with any of yours?"

-Choi Young Do, The Heirs

: 20th January 2016.

: 11.43 p.m.

: Jeli, Kelantan.

: Dear, I think we both have trust issues. How can we cope with this?

Let me fangirl for a while.

Why did you come? 
Where were you?

It seems like it’s a bit late 
but we finally meet

Do you believe in love?

Is this fate?

I keep hearing sweet words

You’re smiling in front of me,

I tightly hold your hand next to you

I look at you with eyes overflowing with love

A song automatically comes out

with my especially light steps. 
Is it because

it resembles you? 
This melody is beautiful

Why do I keep smiling?

Why do I keep looking at my phone?

People around me keep saying that I changed

Why am I like this?

Why do I keep thinking of you?

I guess the love I dreamed of is you

Why did you come now?

Why Did You Come Now- I Hear Your Voice OST [Jung Yup]

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Seriously, what should I do to keep him away from my heart?

I feel like keeping him in my pocket. Aishhh.

This is getting out of hand now.

: 7th November 2015.

: 10.30 p.m.

: Jeli, Kelantan.

: How can he look so cute when he is at the same age as me?
And how can he just enter my heart without my permission?
I guess I am crazy now. I should get a grip of my life.

My heart goes dugeun dugeun.

Because of you, this heart of mine goes thump thump [Sunny Hill]

It was the same day like any other. The weather was unpredictable and I was mentally tired after long hours in the school. My body felt exhausted, too exhausted beyond words. Ironically, my mind was wide awake. I planned for a short nap (yeah right), however, no matter how well I plan, He is indeed the best planner. I lay on my bed, forcing my eyes to shut so that I could get a nap. I tossed on the bed, lulling myself to sleep. To my dismay, I couldn't fall asleep. 

So, instead of wasting my time trying to get a nap, I switched on my laptop. What should I watch today, I wonder. A new drama series? Or one random episode of Running Man? I just couldn't decide. After some time passed, I chose the latter instead of the former. Great. Now, which episode? Which guest should I watch? Hurm, Lee Dong Wook? Watched him already. Ji Sung? Yeah, watched him twice. Kim So Hyun? Hurm, not today. Ahhhh, Lee Jong Suk! I haven't watched him since his latest drama Pinocchio early this year. Ahhhhh, Lee Jong Suk and that boyish smiles. I guess Lee Jong Suk will do.

And, after an hour watching him with Song Ji Hyo trying to accomplish the Secret Couple mission in Running Man Episode 181, I find myself browsing through his videos; from Running Man episode to his drama series. 

 I seriously like the background song they use for every interaction that these two have.

And without me realising it, I have finished watching Pinocchio (again) and Doctor Stranger (urgh that drama was such a flop, I only watched his part) and now I am watching I Hear Your Voice. 

One thing about this namja is his smitten smiles. Aishhh I have such a soft spot for that kind of smiles. Of course Gong Yoo has the best smitten smiles (for me) but every time Lee Jong Suk smiles, I feel like my screen is literally exploding with rainbows and unicorns. Aishhh this namja. What spell have you put on me?

Look at how this smile is invading my train of thoughts these few days.

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"The people who left you did not understand how to love you. 

This does not mean you are unloveable. 

It means not everyone is equipped to handle the extraordinary."

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We mature with the damage,

not with the years.

: 5th November 2015.

: 6.50 p.m.

: Jeli, Kelantan.

: Seriously Lee Jong Suk is not my type,

but why he is now in my heart?

Get a grip dear heart. Wake up!

Of that sparkly hideous looking blue jacket.

That Man [Secret Garden OST]

"The tears of a sinner is more beloved 

to Allah

than the

arrogance of a righteous man."

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Some of you might wondering how on earth I actually have time to watch all sorts of drama series when I am actually working as a secondary school English (and Physics apparently) teacher. Some of you also might find how ironic it is for me to spend so much time watching drama series now (when I am supposed to be busier working) instead of when I was a student; having the time of my life in the U.K once upon a time. Oh well, don't feel bad wondering about that because I myself am wondering how and why this is happening. But, never mind. This will not come out in any exam or interview, so let's just leave it like that, okay?

After finished watching Hana Yori Dango last week, I had this weird feeling of emptiness in my heart. Thinking that it has something to do with the lack of love that I have been feeling since last month (thanks to the amount of stress in teaching exam classes and attending post-mortem meetings), I urged myself to find another mushy drama series (urgh I can't believe I am in need of watching romantic drama series). It took me two days to figure out which drama series I should properly watch as a reward after a long day at school. I was torn between re-watching BIG (with my Gong Yoo in it of course) and watching Secret Garden. 

Secret Garden was a hit when I was in the U.K and I still remember how almost all my friends went crazy over the coffee foam kiss (oopppsss). However, to tell you the truth, I didn't even finish watching the drama. At that time, I only managed to watch until the 2nd episode and until now, I don't even know the exact story line of the drama. But surprisingly, I know the OST of the drama so well to the point that I can even sing it. Weird, right? But yes I admit, I am a weird person. So, after some thoughts, I decided to watch Secret Garden just to put an end to this unfinished business. Gong Yoo can wait. 

So, how do I find the drama so far? It is too mushy oh goshhh it makes me cringe when I think of certain dialogues and scenes ohhhhhh. I guess the reason why I didn't continue watching it years ago is because of the mushiness which makes both my fingers and toes curl ooohhhhhhhh. Oh well, years ago, I was not a fan of sweet mushy cliche type of drama but look at me now. People change and so does my preference ahhahahha. So now, I am watching Secret Garden with a new perspective. I might not like the drama a few years ago, but now, I find the drama interesting and it sure leaves an impression to me as an audience.

As I am writing this, I have come to an understanding of why this drama series was a hit back then. It is a pity that I wasn't able to enjoy this drama with my friends at that time because if I did enjoy it, I would be able to go gaga with them in the class while waiting for our lecturer to come in. To be honest with you, watching Secret Garden makes me miss them so much to the point that I feel that after typing this, when I wake up in the morning tomorrow, I will sit in the class and gossip with my friends over the cringing dialogues by Hyun Bin. However, like what Hyun Bin said in the drama, this is just my imagination. 

I miss sharing thoughts (and obsession) over drama series with my dear friends. However, the time to do that has long gone. Now is not the time to obsess over handsome actors and sweet romantic drama series anymore. Now is the time to fully step into reality; where responsibility lies in every action that we take. 

However, my dear friends, when reality hits you hard, don't be too hard on yourself. You can steal a bit of time to do things that you personally enjoy; like what I have been doing these days-- watching drama series.

And before I forget, salam Maal Hijrah. Let's be a better person; not just for every new year, but every day.

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"Make yourself a priority 

once in a while.

It's not selfish.

It's necessary."

: 13th October 2015.

: 11.00 p.m.

: Jeli, Kelantan.

: Olmanaaa olmanaaaaaaaaaa~

"We are the people of Saturn", said Domyouji.

"Anytime you're gonna grow, you're gonna lose something. You're losing what you're hanging onto to keep safe. You're losing habits that you're comfortable with, you're losing familiarity."

-James Hillman

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My Jdorama feels is back, peeps. For the past three days I have been watching an old Jdorama (Japanese drama) series, no matter how busy I was (and I still am at the moment). I don't know why but I just feel like revisiting the plot of Hana Yori Dango, the Japanese version of Boys Over Flower (BOF). Of course you all know that Hana Yori Dango and its Japanese, Korean (Boys Over Flower), and Taiwanese (Meteor Garden-- ohhh Dao Ming Si!) adaptions are all based on the manga by the same name by Yoko Kamio. It became super popular and regarded as one of the classic series in most Kdrama addicts' hearts, even after all these years.  

And, as most of you would probably know by now how the Korean version of BOF has such a special place in my heart-- thanks to the second pairing that I love the most; Yi Jung and Ga Eul, ironically, I never liked the main leads of the Korean version. Sorry, Gu Jun Pyo. I just don't find you and the heroine lovable enough to put in my list of favourite pairings. 

Instead, I find myself falling in love with the main leads in Hana Yori Dango. The chemistry between Matsumoto Jun (Tsukasa Domyouji) and Inoue Mao (Makino Tsukushi) was apparent; I felt like they are a real couple, unlike the Korean version. Jun was so amazing in this drama, he's truly the perfect actor for Domyouji and oh, he is the reason I am laughing throughout this drama. His quirkiness, his language mistakes and his attitude; all those made him lovable (even though actually I never find him cute or handsome in other drama series). And for the heroine, I like this version best of Makino, she’s sweet, powerful, and stubborn at times, but she’s the one that resembles the original manga Makino the most. For me, Inoue Mao was perfect as Makino. Throughout the two seasons of this drama, we see her change a lot; in a good way. She starts off as somehow uncaring person, and ends up defending her love and her right to choose the way she lives. In comparison to the Korean version, I could see how she hated Domyouji at the beginning of the drama and ended up falling in love with Domyouji as the plot progresses. Even I, as the audience, ended up falling in love with this Makino and rooted for her and Domyouji (no matter how I actually love Oguri Shun who acted as Hanazawa Rui, the second hero in the drama). See, this is the power of love, people, the power of love! Ahhahaha.

Oh well, after this I am going to watch Hana Yori Dango movie to end this infatuation. The sooner I watch, the better. Or else, I might be spazzing over these two dorks for quite some time. I don't want that. My students are struggling for their upcoming exams.  I need to get in touch with reality as soon as possible.

: 3rd October 2015.

: 7.45 p.m.

: Jeli, Kelantan.

: I heard Matsumoto Jun and Inoue Mao have been dating for 9 years now.

If it's true, I wish them happiness.

If not, I still have them as a happy couple in Hana Yori Dango. 

That smile, aishhh stop it.

Let’s not fall in love, we don’t know each other very well yet

Actually, I’m a little scared, I’m sorry

Let’s not make promises, you never know when tomorrow comes

But I really mean it when I say I like you

[Let's Not Fall in Love, Big Bang]

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"I hope one day

someone asks you

about him

and you laugh

instead of feeling

a double edged

dagger on your chest."

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"As long as you are performing prayer,

you are knocking at the door of Allah,

and whoever is knocking at the door of Allah,

Allah will open it for him."

-Ibn Qayyim Al Jawziyyah

: 7th August 2015.

: 7.00 p.m.

: Jeli, Kelantan.

: Today is one of the days where an old book, online stories and Big Bang's songs

bring happiness despite the raging storms and dark clouds of thoughts

that are lingering and surrounding my poor, fragile, messed-up soul.

"Hey you, Sweet Potato."

Sempurna waktu, ada dirimu, ada cintamu

“Because there is no future if there is no present.” 

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The reason I am now hooked to this drama series is the heroine. Even though she is frustratingly blind to her own heart at times, I understood every bit of her reaction as it is her way of building a tough shell for herself against others. A woman who protects herself so well that she forgets to sometimes let others in—that’s a character I fundamentally understand and relate to. 

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"The ones who notice the storms in your eyes,

the silence in your voice 

and the heaviness in your heart

are the ones you need to let in."

: 5th August 2015.

: 10.03 p.m.

: Jeli, Kelantan.

: Today in school, my friend showed me a post which made me laughed at myself.

And the best thing in school is; almost all teachers thought I have already engaged.

My, my, my. Where on earth did the rumour come from? A single person like me?

Ahhh biarkan. Skandal pun skandal lah, janji tak tanya soalan lebih lebih. Erk.

The Hours of My Life.

"And whoever does a wrong or wrongs himself, 

but then seeks forgiveness from Allah, 

he will find Allah forgiving and merciful."

(Surah An-Nisa', 4: 110)

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Boku no Ita Jikan (The Hours of My Life)

I have to admit that the moment I knew Haruma Miura acted in this drama, even though I know for sure (especially from the title) that it is a melodrama, I started to search and read the reviews; hoping that it is worth watching (and crying) for. And tell you what, I regret watching the first episode, not because the drama seems to be lousy, but because it seems to be good and unfortunately for me, the story is like a road that may be painful to walk on *weeps and grabs a tissue*.

It must be the tragic nature of the main character that attracts me to this drama (oh no I am not a sadist and well, put aside Haruma Miura please). This drama revolves around Sawada Takuto (played by Haruma Miura) who recently graduated from the university and has a difficult time getting a job. For the first few episodes, we can  see how Takuto; being the eldest son of a doctor, is emotionally hurt of being compared to his younger brother who is on his way of becoming a doctor and of being rejected from all the companies that he went for interview. It is still early for us to see how depressing this drama will be but as we see his struggles in keeping a positive outlook throughout the interviews and keeping a cheerful face as the parent seems to pay more attention to his brother, we cannot help but feel sorry for him. However, the presence of Hongo Megumi (played by Mikako Tabe), the girl whom he met during one of the interviews, adds sunshine to his life. Both of them happen to share the same bad luck of not getting a full-time job.

The first few episodes show how frustrating yet sweet Takuto's life is. After he is finally accepted by a furniture company, Takuto has to endure both harsh complaints from his senior colleagues and the lack of acknowledgement from his parent over his efforts in finally getting a decent job. But no, that is not all. As the plot develops, it seems like he has to endure something more tragic; he has ALS (whyyyyyyy of all people Takuto whyyyyyyy).

This drama, though almost similar with the most famous (and depressing to watch) drama of incurable disease; One Litre of Tears ( I cried not one litre but litres of tears wuwuwuuu my poor Nishikido Ryo), is interestingly different and special on its own. This drama shows that society can get ugly; but there are people who are willing to accept, willing to hope, willing to help. Oh, at least there is hope for humanity (especially in this sick world we are living now). 

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me      : you should watch this show.
friend : oh yeah? how was it?
me      : it shatters your heart and soul into a million pieces and makes you weep for months.
friend : ...
me      : it's good, you should watch it.

: 27th June 2015.

: 3.00 p.m.

: Jeli, Kelantan.

: "I think you do meet people you are destined to meet." [Sawada Takuto] 

A sad yet inspiring movie is what we need sometimes.

You can keep me, inside the pocket of your ripped jeans

Title: Boku wa Nosei Mahi no Top Salesman (Door To Door).

This Japanese movie is based on a true story about about a man who was told for many years that he was not employable due to the fact he is suffering from cerebral palsy. However, he put all of his effort into working as a door-to-door salesman. Despite the pain attributed to his cerebral palsy, he walked eight to ten miles a day to meet his customers and achieved the highest sales for his company.

At first, I thought that this movie is just an ordinary movie where we get to see the main character with his disabilities will be able to gain what he wanted in the end. Cliche, for me. However, as I read one of the reviews which stated that this is the type of movie everyone should at least watch once, and found that Ninomiya Kazunari acted in this movie, curiosity got the better of me. 

And when the main character, Kurosawa Hideo-san said,

"I am used...to that. When people meet me for the first time, they're always cautious like this. There's no one who would be kind to me from the very start."

my heart went out for him. I even prepared my heart for more heart-breaking and depressing moments ahead. And I was right. This movie is freaking sad and yet an eye-opener for us especially in understanding and dealing those who suffer from cerebral palsy. And to see Kurosawa Hideo-san struggling to achieve at least one sale made my heart clenched. Oh God, how sad it was to watch him throughout the movie. Why on earth am I tormenting myself watching this type of movie? Whyyyyy? Doushiteeeeee?

Hey, if one day you feel like giving up, please watch this movie. You will feel that, no matter how bad your day is or how terrible things are, there are others who might suffer even more than you. Lets be grateful and treat those who are less than us with respect. 

And what I mean by 'less' here does not only mean less in terms of physical or mental abilities, but also less in terms of status, family background and even academic achievement. Let us learn to treat others how we want others to treat us. Cheers.

: 13th June 2015.

: 2.15 a.m.

: Penang, Malaysia.

: There is another reason why I picked this movie; Ninomiya Kazunari. Hehe.

Of Aizen Sosuke, Hueco Mundo and an old manga.

Let me go, I don't wanna be your hero

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I spent my three-day-weekend by reading; particularly manga. I don't know why, but old habits die hard I guess. Even after I promised myself to move on from the childlike-world of manga and anime, the longing to read old manga came without me realising it. And after almost two years without manga (yup, the last time I read manga was actually the last year I was in the U.K), I finally clicked the manga site and bammmmm! I was glued to my chair and my eyes were strained for reading on the screen for a very looooooooooong period. Aishhh, I need to grow up!

Alas, I have been reading Bleach once again. I actually forgot what was the last chapter I read years ago, so, I randomly clicked on any chapter and yeah; I am now falling deeper into the twisting plot. And this time, instead of Hitsugaya Toushiro, the taichou who captured my heart from the beginning of the manga, I find that I am now attracted to Aizen Sosuke, the betrayer of the Soul Society. Oh gosh, he is the villain. Why did I find him attractive? Whyyyyyyyyy? (I think most probably because of his new hair ahhahaha :p )

*manga: Japanese comic                   *taichou: captain

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"Don't underestimate the allure to darkness. 

Even the purest of hearts are drawn to it."

: 25th May 2015.

: 10.50 p.m.

: Jeli, Kelantan.

: Tomorrow, I am going to Pasir Puteh for a camp

with AADK; Agensi Anti-Dadah Kebangsaan.

My book crush 1: Peeta Mellark.

Across the Universe [Fiona Apple]

“You're still trying to protect me. Real or not real," he whispers. 

"Real," I answer. "Because that's what you and I do, protect each other.”  

― Suzanne Collins, Mockingjay

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“That what I need to survive is not Gale's fire, kindled with rage and hatred. I have plenty of fire myself. What I need is the dandelion in the spring. The bright yellow that means rebirth instead of destruction. The promise that life can go on, no matter how bad our losses. That it can be good again. And only Peeta can give me that.” 

So after, when he whispers, "You love me. Real or not real?" I tell him "Real.” 

― Suzanne Collins, Mockingjay

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I have been reading The Hunger Games trilogy these past few days. Actually, I have read errrrrr like a third of the first book; Hunger Games loooonggg time ago but since work and other things had me preoccupied, I forgot to continue reading the book.

After I suddenly remembered about Peeta Mellark last Thursday (oh well, I don't know why my brain suddenly thought about Peeta Mellark), I decided to spend my free time (yeah, free la sangat kan), reading the book. Oh my, after I finished reading both Hunger Games and Catching Fire, I think I have a crush on Peeta Mellark more than any other fictional characters that I have read so far. This is bad. This is bad.

: 8th November 2014.

: 8.35 p.m.

: Jeli, Kelantan.

: My housemate has finally got her 'baby'~

His name is Alex James Wilson. He he he.

Can't wait to see the baby.

Intriguingly addictive.

Welcome to the Hotel California, such a lovely place

.................

There was something extremely wrong with my phone and the line, of course. I seriously in need of a new handphone. A new well-functioned handphone. Is there anyone who is willing enough to buy me one?

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Here I am again; writing and reading stories online. Oh, reading is sooooo intriguingly addictive. Reading is my drug. Errr...drug maybe a little bit too extreme. What I really mean is; reading is my therapy. He he he he.

: 18th October 2014.

: 12.00 p.m.

: Jeli, Kelantan.

: My housemate's students are way beyond cute.

I mean, the way they behave with teachers around.

Ohh, guys in suits.

Welcome to the Hotel California

You might be wondering what am I up to, seeing me not on Facebook and not on Twitter or any other social network like always. Oh yeah, I've been wondering myself too. What am I doing? What is the thing that make me sooooo preoccupied offline? 

Let me tell you what is the thing, or rather who is that person.

Introducing you.....tadaaaaaa....

Oh, guys in suits. Hotness. Harvey Specter? Oh, even the word hotness can't describe him. 

Thanks to one of my secondary school friends. She is the one who got me into him. Cheeky girl. You knew my taste sooo well. Ahhaha. I think we both have the same taste in men. Urmm but not all. Some, maybe. Hehehe.

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I can't wait for the upcoming school holidays which will due in less than two weeks now. 

Yehuuuu yabedabeduuuuuu.

: 22nd September 2014.

: 10.50 p.m.

: Jeli, Kelantan.

: How can a middle age man look soooo dashing? Life begins at forty, huh?

"Let me tell you that it is possible."

[Team, Lorde]

Me too, Jude Law. Me too. 

Ahhahhahaha *start dah start dah*

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Today I finally watched an old movie. Like before, I had a tough day and I decided to watch a movie. And a 1997 movie; 'Gattaca' caught my eyes. 

If I am not mistaken, one of my childhood friends used to pester me to watch this movie when I was like errr...thirteen years old? Oh gosh, it took me twelve years to finally watch the movie that she recommended. I think by now, she must have forgotten that she asked me to watch it. I'm sorry dear. This is me. I know you know how long it will take for me to watch a movie that anyone recommended. So yeah, finally I have watched it yeaaahhhhhh. 

I definitely made a right decision. Why? There are Ethan Hawke and Jude Law in the movie. Oh, eye candies. Why didn't I watch this movie sooner? Whyyyyy? Tula, orang dah lama suruh tengok takmau tengok. After watching these eye candies, there goes my tiredness and stress ahahhahahaha. 

But hey, you should try and watch the movie if you haven't. There are quite a number of issues that will make you think. While watching, terms like "prejudice", "nature vs nurture", "glass ceiling" and even "science vs fate" kept ringing in my head. It was nice to have a good thinking process while watching. Oh well, at least for me. Please do watch it when you are free. Even if you take ten years to finally watch it, by that time, if I am still alive, do let me know what you think about it. Let's have a deep discussion of this movie. Hehe.

 Caught what Ethan, caught what? My heart? 

Ahhahha *okay over dah over dah*

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I miss having deep discussions about random things with my friends. My brain is getting a bit rusty after some time. Help me please.

: 4th August 2014.

: 11.20 p.m.

: Jeli, Kelantan.

: The neighbour invited us for an open house today.

More fruits are in the house yooo~

Books, I miss your company.

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Books can make us become someone else at some other place.
That's why I love books.
Oh, I miss my books.

: 14th June 2014.

: 10.25 p.m.

: Jeli, Kelantan.

: In need of more time to read my own books.

"Elementary, my dear Watson."

[Violin played]

"How often have I said to you that 

when you have eliminated the impossible, 

whatever remains, 

however improbable, 

must be the truth?"

[The Sign of Four, Sir Arthur Conan Doyle]

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Since I was in my early teenage years, I have been a fan to Sir Arthur Conan Doyle's Sherlock Holmes. I love the adventures that this fictional 'consulting detective' had with his best friend, Dr Watson. I still remember how excited I was upon finding the books of this Holmes. At that time, I was more than willing to cycle for quite a distance just to go to a not-so-near library and read all the books. Not just that. I even had a notebook to write the synopsis of all the adventures. I wrote the year of each case and I even tried to decipher the codes that are featured in the adventures. Oh, how extremely obsessed I was with this detective stories. 

And unfortunately, though people said that through time such obsession will fade away, in my case, it didn't. One fine day, while I was wandering in the land of Tumblr, I found a few screencaps of a BBC drama series entitled 'Sherlock'. To tell you the truth, upon knowing the existence of this drama series, I had tried my best to stay away from this Sherlock. You know, I don't really prefer watching drama series which are adapted from books or novels but hey, curiosity finally gets the best of me. I watched this drama series like two weeks ago and here I am, totally in love with it. 

Why, why on earth did they ever think of doing this type of drama series? Whyyyyy? Oh, I fall in love with Sherlock again and again. 

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There is this one person whose randomness I can't comprehend.

: 20th April 2014.

: 10.00 p.m.

: Jeli, Kelantan.

: Oh my, one more episode and tadaaaa...

I have watched all three seasons of Sherlock. 

For a hopeless romantic like me.

Oh baby I think that I am falling in love with you

This is too cute to handle for a hopeless romantic like me. Another hopeless romantic friend of mine suggested this Thai lakorn (drama) to me and ohhh, I am hooked. Episode by episode and I can't help feeling all giddy giddy looking at them. Urghhh, why so cuteeeee?

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And still, after all this time, the Sun has never said to the Earth, “You owe me.” 

Look what happens with love like that. It lights up the sky.

— Hafez 

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“No relationship is perfect, ever. There are always some ways you have to bend, to compromise, to give something up in order to gain something greater…The love we have for each other is bigger than these small differences. And that’s the key. It’s like a big pie chart, and the love in a relationship has to be the biggest piece. Love can make up for a lot.”

— Sarah Dessen, This Lullaby

: 4th March 2014.

: 04.00 p.m.

: Penang, Malaysia.

: Watching this drama makes me want to eat somtam (Thai food) sooo much.

Aishhh, it has been a while since I last watched a Thai drama

and here I am, loving every minute of watching it.

It feels so lonely without half of my family at home.

The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore [James Morrison]

"And I learned what is obvious to a child. That life is simply a collection of little lives, each lived one day at a time. That each day should be spent finding beauty in flowers and poetry and talking to animals. That a day spent with dreaming and sunsets and refreshing breezes cannot be any better. But most of all, I learned that life is about sitting on benches next to ancient creeks with my hand on her knee and sometimes, on good days, for falling in love."

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"One day you will wake up and thank Allah for all your unanswered prayers." 

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More great stories await. I should have found these stories sooner. 

They have awaken the reading spirit in me

and I love it.

He he he he.

: 23rd February 2014.

: 9.30 p.m.

: Penang, Malaysia.

: I love to read stories of characters that have complicated thoughts in them.

It feels like reading my own self; but with different names and adventures.

Let's go out and watch the shooting star together.

Beautiful Days [Arashi]

It's been a while since I last watched a J-dorama (Japanese drama series). No matter how I love to watch K-drama these days, J-dorama still has a special place in my heart. These few nights, I have been watching this J-dorama; Ryuusei no Kizuna or also known as Ties of Shooting Stars.

"When we grow up… We'll kill him together". 

Koichi, Taisuke, and Shizuna are three siblings whose parents had been brutally murdered when they were just in elementary school, and they vowed to avenge their death. Fourteen years later, their vengeful plan unravels countless new facts. A shocking revelation leads to an overwhelmingly emotional ending. What will become of the siblings who have lived their lives solely in reliance of their bond alone? 

This J-dorama is adapted from a novel under the genre mystery and suspense. Honestly, I decided to watch this J-dorama because of Nishikido Ryo (yeahhhhh) and also Ninomiya Kazunari (I only got to know him after watching the movie GANTZ). However, as I watched it episode by episode, this drama makes me think more about my own self. Questions like; 'What would I do if I were them?' or 'How would I feel if I were them?' or 'Why us?' keep popping inside my brain. Urghh, it is kind of disturbing but somehow, I am learning more about myself as I searched for the answer episode by episode. This is one of the reasons I like this type of drama. It makes you sit uncomfortably in your seat while watching as you see not the character but your own self in that character. Fuhhh, deep (konon).

Oh well, I have a few more episodes to go as I can't force my brain to watch all of the episodes in one night. They said the ending is very unexpected and unhappy, so yeah, I have to prepare myself. Talking about ending, I know that I have promised myself to watch more happy-ending type of drama, but please, please and please, even though the ending is not a happy one, please let me watch for the sake of my Nishikido Ryo. Pleaseeeeeeee.

: 30th January 2014.

: 12.15 a.m.

: Penang, Malaysia.

: Orphans should be cherished so that even though they don't have any parent,

they still get all the love in the world.

And please, cherish your parents while they are still alive.