Compete?

"Whoever seeks to compete with you in your religion, 
compete with him; 

whoever seeks to compete with you in this world, 
let him have it."

-Al-Hasan Al-Basri

In other words, whoever seeks to compete with you in loving and obeying Allah, doing good deeds, and be good to others, compete with him. But, whoever seeks to compete in pursuing wealth and fame in this world, just let him have it.

I want to protect you.

"It's alright"
Even with just those words
If I could embrace your uneasy nights
Until the time you fall asleep
I will just become a blanket and hug you


From the time that humans are born　
Everyone would have used the same pair of small hands to cry
That's why it is fine to remain like that


Because I want to protect you, because I want to keep protecting you
I am here, I would like you to believe that
Because it is alright to cry when you feel like crying
It is ok to not pretend to be strong and to not endure.


Because I want to protect you, because I want to protect you even more
The things that I can do, I would like you to tell me
In order for you to be able to smile at all times
I will prepare a warm place
Because I love you~


You will be able to do it again, even for a few times
Do not be afraid of the things which do not go smoothly
As much as the many times that you were hurt　
You will be able to strongly greet a gentle tomorrow


In order to take a trip during our life
There will also be times where we backtrack while losing our way
But the path has been found.


Because I want to protect you, because I want to keep protecting you
I am here, I would like you to believe that
It is ok even if you come to a stop, it is ok even if you lose
My feelings for you will not change


Because I want to protect you, because I want to protect all of you
I would like you to support my loneliness too
Don't forget, I am here as your friend
Even on rainy days, even when we can't meet from far
Because I love you~


For the eclipsed moon to be full again
For the rainbow to appear when the rain has stopped
Even sadness will someday become a shining star
We will be joint to hope, shining star


Because I want to protect you, because I want to keep protecting you
I am here, I would like you to believe that
Because it is alright to cry when you feel like crying
It is ok to not pretend to be strong and to not endure


Because I want to protect you, because I want to protect you even more
The things that I can do, I would like you to tell me
In order for you to be able to smile at all times
I will prepare a warm place
baby you have all my love, no matter when　
I will keep looking at you. 
Because I love you~

Cat?

Cats really are the animals that humans can learn a lot from.

Sometimes they are too lazy, looking silly,
But when they move, they run around with passion

Cats enjoy both passion and laziness at the same time, there are no (conditions) in between!
Seems like they don’t like an intermediate state

Their character is very straightforward
Thinking they are the best n the world
Maybe it’s because of this, feelings of like and dislike are clearly expressed

Actually, I really envy these kind of cats
In terms of relationship, I could never be straightforward
Hurting by myself, or maybe causing others to misunderstand
If I have straightforward characteristic like cats, at least I wouldn’t leave behind sad feelings.

Cat doesn’t seem to like me
No matter how hard I try, if he doesn’t like it, he wouldn’t spare a single glance
As a pet, I don’t know if he is the most hateful one
But his straightforward ways of expressing feelings, a way to not get hurt, and other ways of loving me
I really want to learn from him.

Jaejoong's Essay

Please Stop The Time.

I'm listening to: Toki wo Tomete

Now, this is random.

Suddenly I feel like putting random things here.

You know, it's not good to keep everything inside your heart.

Sometimes, we need to express it somewhere.

Well, that's what I'm doing right now.
Ahahahaha

You know what, 

no matter how optimistic I am,

sometimes reality hurts.

The truth is, not all that we hope will come true.

But no harm done to continue hoping, right?

No, I'm not being too obsessed over them.

I just want them to be together.

It's their broken friendship that hurts me the most.

I just want a bunch of good friends stay friends.

That's what I want, 

what more in my friendships with others.

Their split is not what makes me sad and worried about them the most, 

their friendship is. 

I wonder whether their friendship is affected with all those things,

because to be honest with, that's the last thing I want to happen.

: 15th January 2011.

: 02.16 a.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: You know what I feel right now? 

It's like you are homesick to a place that doesn't exist, anymore.

Still, I will try to support them, no matter which path they choose.

Postman to Heaven.

Heaven's Postman.

A simple yet a very touching story about love and death.

You know,
there are people in this world who can't get over the death of their beloved ones.
They blame themselves on what had happened and live in regret.

Such pain and regret that are felt deep in their hearts can never be erased,
 if they themselves do not move on.

Move on?

Easy said than done.

But hey,

rather than weeping and grieving over it,

why don't we, the ones who are still alive,

continue our own journey in this life,

 until we meet them,

 one day.

[ You know what, watching this makes me feel like writing a letter 
to my relatives and friends who had passed away. 
Dearies, I miss you guys. 
Moga kalian ditempatkan di kalangan orang-orang yang beriman. 
Thank you for being a part of my life.
Till we meet again. ]

: 14th January 2011.

: 00.50 a.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: I don't know why, but looking at Jaejoong's face, my heart can't stop aching. 
Oh yeah, by the way, today is my sister's birthday. Happy birthday, dear! 

Ramen.

This is what I always feel especially when I am in the middle of completing my assignment. 

Ohhh, I'm so hungry. 

: 9th January 2011.

: 02.57 a.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: I have an assignment to be submitted tomorrow. Yup, tomorrow. 
Don't look at me like that. I know, I know. 
I shouldn't procrastinate in the first place. I know. 

La Tahzan.

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  : لاتحزن 

   فإن الله يدافع عنك، والملائكة تستغفر لك، والمؤمنون يشركونك في دعائهم كل  صلاة، والنبي يشفع، والقرآن يعدك وعداً حسناً، وفوق هذا رحمة أرحم الراحمين

  
  

When did you last eat?

"At times the world may seem an unfriendly and sinister place, 
but believe us when we say that there is much more good in it than bad. 
All you have to do is look hard enough. 
And what might seem to be a series of unfortunate events 
may in fact be the first steps of a journey. "

— Lemony Snicket's A Series of Unfortunate Events.

: 1st January 2011.

: 10.29 p.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: I just like the words in the picture. I bet you know why. Heh. 

My reflection.

I'm listening to: Stay The Same

Oh, wow. 1st January 2011. We are no longer in 2010. 

Goodbye 2010, welcome 2011. 

My resolution this year?
No other than to turn my last year resolutions into reality.
Heh.

2010 made me into a different person. 
Seriously.
So different until I can no longer recognise my own self.
Sorry for those who might be hurt for who I have changed into.
Sorry. I'm truly sorry.

The way I see it.

I'm listening to: Goodbye, Goodnight.

taken from: tumblr.com (credit to the owner)

Optimism is finding your summer during your winter,

your day in your night,

your smile in your frown.