Is this how it feel to be heartbroken?

Dear heart,

Don’t assume you mean anything special to a person if they don’t show you and very confirm that’s how they feel. Don’t put on your detective hat and try to figure out if x means y and that leads to z. Because if a person cares for you, they will make it known. And you deserve a person that makes it known how much you mean to them.

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 "Continue to share your heart with people

even if it has been broken."

-Amy Poehler, Harvard Speech

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"To heal a wound, you need to stop touching it."

: 25th December 2015.

: 11.55 p.m.

: Penang, Malaysia.

: A few days ago, I tried my best to do something.

Now, when it doesn't go my way, I feel so depressed.

I should stop being so and move along, right?

A promise. To myself.

Surah al-Fussilat

I have a promise.

Not to just anybody, but to myself.


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"Ringankan tangan, doamu tidak dikenakan bayaran."

: 10th December 2011.

: 01.00 p.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: A promise is a promise.

Forgotten Season.

"Pesan Lukmanul Hakim: 

Wahai anakku, bukanlah suatu kebaikan namanya

 bilamana engkau selalu mencari ilmu tetapi tidak pernah mengamalkannya, 

kerana ia tidak ubah seperti orang yang mencari kayu api, 

tetapi setelah banyak, dia tidak mampu memikulnya, 

padahal dia masih mahu menambahkannya."

[31st October 2008, 17:54 p.m.]

This is your last message to me.

I still keep it no matter how sad I feel when I read it again.

Until now, I just can't get over the fact that

I never had the chance to properly say 'thank you' to you.

But, no matter how desperately I want to,

you are no longer here. 

You just don't know how painful I feel.

Now, after a year, I guess, I should let it go, 
shouldn't I?

Thank you for everything. 

May Allah bless your soul.

Thank you.

Al-Fatihah.

: Clouds remind me of you.
Until we meet again.