We are all monsters.

If I tell you “it’s alright”

I know that they’re only words [Lee Hi]

My dear,

I am sorry I should have noticed it earlier, with the deep quotes you shared and the black and white photos you posted. I agree, it isn't always flowers on days and all stars at night. There will be times for heavy rain on days and dark sky at night. I know, and I completely understand how dark and lonely it is at your side. But my dear, I am here whenever you feel like pouring all your dark thoughts. Because, you were there when all I saw was darkness. 

I care about you so much I hope better days are coming to you. Please eat well. 

.....................

Why depression is hard to understand.

It is invisible.

It is not 'feeling a bit sad.'

....................

: 23rd April 2016.

: 8.15 p.m.

: Jeli, Kelantan.

: I believe we should meet so that I can give you a warm hug.

And maybe we can sing loudly in the car like we used to years ago.

That was definitely the most stress-free time of our life.

From Butterworth to Gombak.

Terlalu rindu, terlalu rindu, jujur aku terlalu rindu, tiada lain selain rindu

"Maybe I love too much

and maybe I show too little."

....................

Last week, a few days before the school holiday, I suddenly had the urge to go on a train. I didn't think of where to go, but I did want to go somewhere by train. I mentioned it randomly to one of my friends but she didn't quite catch it. So, I sent a text to one of my dearest about this. Thinking that I haven't had the opportunity to sit and share things with just the two of us, I asked her if she had any plan over the weekend. Thankfully, she didn't have any plan so tadaaaaa-- I bought an ETS ticket to KL Sentral. 

Meeting her is what I actually needed for such a long time. Even though we did meet during one of my friends' wedding in Teluk Intan, the time was too short for us to share lots of things that we used to share ever since we were roommates back in the Teaching College nine years ago. And I seriously need to talk to her, sharing what has been bothering me and what have I gone through since we have been posted to our respective schools. There were soooooo many things to talk about and alhamdulillah, meeting her was the best decision I have ever made this month. Thank you Allah for such opportunity.

.......................

Dear, 

Thank you so much for everything. I guess the time we spent together wasn't enough to cover all topics; you name it; schools, friends, colleagues, relatives, students and the list goes on and on. I still remember how we used to spend our nights talking about random things. I also remember all those dilemma and stress we used to share until whoever hurts either one of us, we won't hesitate to go after that person back in our foundation years. The thought of you scolding those people never fails to make me smile. The thought of us being scolded for coming late to class too never fails to make me laugh. Oh, when we are together, we are always late. It is not that either one of us wake up late or what, but when we are together, we always feel that we can take our own sweet time and no matter what, we feel that we can make it. Yeahhh, that's what we think. And I guess dear, in the recent issue that we talked about, I am trying hard to think that yeahhh, we can make it too. I still have that photo of yours, you know, about the tree? Yeahh, I will keep it of course. Meanwhile, please take care and believe that my prayers are always with you. Love you so much lillah. May Allah protect you and shower you with more love around you for being such a loving friend to me; who don't deserve such amount of love from anyone. I love you, saranghaeeeee.

......................

People think a soulmate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soulmate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.

: 13th February 2016.

: 11.20 p.m.

: Jeli, Kelantan.

: Everytime I listen to 'Terlalu Rindu' by Eleena Harris, I remember you.

I won't tell a soul.

If I showed you my flaws, if I couldn't be strong, tell me honestly, would you still love me the same

"If there's anything I've learned from my recent spiritual/ religious studies and silently observing my environment, it's that when God loves you, He won't necessarily bless you in ways that are obvious or material like a new high-powered job or prestigious degrees. Instead, He will favour you in ways that make you more grounded internally and make you a better human being. He will give you a better sense of self. He will give you a better sense of self-worth. He will give you charity in knowledge. He will give you clarity in knowing Him. He will give you more opportunities to help others. And ultimately, He will give you peace of mind and a sound heart. Sometimes, His blessings are not obvious."

.................

Why can't anyone put them together as the main leads instead? We need villain-like couples too, not just sweet mushy pairs.

Why? So that we can see a drama where instead of evil parents or jealous frenemy, it is them who ruin each other's love life. You know, it will be so anxious and frustrating to watch how unpredictable they might be and how their ego and dark sides will test the love that they have for each other. Because, in this life, rather than other people, it is us who make it difficult for happiness to creep in our life. It is us who build walls and hurt others; just to protect our own hearts. But in the end, it is us who hurt ourselves.

See, isn't it interesting to watch this kind of drama? We need our main leads to have flaws because admit it, we all do have flaws, in our own way. 

....................

These few days, I noticed how my dear friends are having dark days of their own. I have been there; you know, the feeling of sadness, self-pity, self-doubt and hurt even though the reasons might not be the same. Some time this week, in my English class, I taught my students of a poem entitled 'What Has Happened to Lulu?'. One of the issues in the poem is 'everyone, no matter what is their age, faces their own kind of problems'.  While teaching them this, I had this realisation that yeah, we all have our own problems. For us, we find that our problem is big, and sometimes much bigger than everyone else's. When others tell us not to fret too much, we feel that it is unfair for them to say so because they don't know how we feel. That is why most of the times, we feel like people won't understand us because they are not in our shoes. However, my dear, God is fair. Whatever problem we are facing, it is because He knows that no one, except us who can bear such burden. Hence, that is why in Quran, there is a verse saying; "Allah does not burden a soul more than it can bear."

So, my dear friends, please be strong and have faith that no matter how bad it is right now, He will make sure you can go through it. I love you all the same, and while I am physically far from each of you, my prayers are just behind you. Until we meet again, do take care.

: 29th January 2016.

: 10.30 p.m.

: Jeli, Kelantan.

: Be gentle with yourself, you're doing the best you can.

From EC6 to Student Village to two different states.

Because I Miss You [Jung Yonghwa] 

Dear my ex-roommate, my travelling partner and my gossip girl,

Believe it or not, we've known each other for almost 8 years now. We started our friendship as roommates, then as close friends, and over the years, we are more like a family. 

In every relationship, there are bounds to be ups and downs and we've been through all that. I admit that there were times when I was difficult to understand, times when I was being an annoying human being in that small room we shared back in the teaching college, times when I was suddenly being so distant, times when I was being such a spoiled baby and times when I was being so careless with my words. However, despite all that, you never fail to be such an amazing friend to me. 

I still remember the beginning of our friendship. We both were so different from each other. It was not easy to accommodate and cater the differences we had; you need to sleep with the light on while I can only sleep in total darkness, you tend to do assignments earlier while I am a last minute fighter, you tend to sleep early while I always sleep late and the list goes on and on. The differences that we had at that time can make us grow apart, but instead, by trying to understand and cater each and every difference that we had, we have grown closer day by day. And over time, we learn that we both are different but similar in so many ways.

It is a lie if we say that we never had a misunderstanding. We did, but thankfully, we somehow tried our best to communicate with each other. Communication is definitely important. I never like to say what I really think, but growing up with you, I learn to say what I have in mind. It was not easy for me to put into words all the thoughts I had at the beginning of our friendship, but over time, I can share a lot of things with you even without you asking about it. The words just come out when I am with you. It shows how comfortable I am with you. That is why we can stay up all night talking about all the random things that come into our minds. I miss doing that with you. You know, talking about everything and nothing at the same time. I hope you miss it too, just like I do.

I might never show or tell you directly but your presence in my life means a lot to me. It gives me real courage when I know you are there with me. Though we are now separated by distance and work commitments, I still hold you dear in my thoughts. And there were times, especially when I heard certain words being said by others or when I listened to songs that we used to listen together, you just popped into my mind. 

I could never thank you enough for all the support and love that you have given me throughout our friendship. Thank you for always being there for me especially when I need you the most. And sometimes, even without me having to reach for you, you are already there with a big warm hug. Tell you what, you are among those friends who can actually decipher the meaning behind every facial expression I make and every word I say. You know, with just one sentence and one type of laugh, you can definitely know whether I am being serious or I am joking. Oh, my students and even my colleagues can't differentiate between those two. It's so frustrating sometimes. 

Dear you, in case people haven't told you this, you are a beautiful person; inside out. You and your kind heart, that is what makes people so drawn to you. You are so pure and that is why some people take you for granted. But my dear, even if people might be harsh to you and the whole world might put you through such a difficult time, please continue being the kind you. Those people might not be able to appreciate you, but Allah knows and He will definitely reward you with better things in life. 

I might not be able to be there with you to lend my shoulder and shed your tears during your difficult times, but whatever brings you down, whatever makes you cry, whatever makes you hurt, I promise you, my prayers will always be there. In case I haven't told you this, remember, pain ends, but my love and support will never end. So, on this special day of yours, may you have all the happiness you deserve. And may Allah will always shower you with abundance of blessings in life.

Do you still remember this moment?

"One of the greatest gifts of God:

The people in our lives,

who accept,

and love,

the whole us-

not just the parts that glimmer."

: 13th October 2015.

: 11.59 p.m.

: Jeli, Kelantan.

: I have this habit where I will wish people Happy Birthday
a few minutes before the day ends.

Is it a bad habit? Should I change it?

What are the worst comments?

I'm a loser [Big Bang]

"Please come to me, I am too hurt, to have hurt you. 

We can better bear it together."

....................

August has always been a precious month for me. No, not because my birthday falls in this month. Rather, it is because a lot of my friends' birthdays fall in this month. These friends of mine, their presence is precious to me and each of them leaves such a deep impression in my life.

One of them is already married. This friend; she is such a unique person and when I said unique, she is one of the kind. She was in the same class as me when I was Form 1. First impression, she looked like an ordinary girl but when she shared her thoughts, wow, she made me think a lot. We discussed a lot of random stupid things. Just name it; how Bulma and Bezita got married (Dragonball characters, okay), how Jack the Ripper got away with his crimes (we were so into investigation thanks to Detective Conan), can we live in Mars one day (a heated discussion this one, she strongly believed humans will be able to live in Mars one day) and a lot of other topics. And looking back at those so-called deep discussions (more like random chat), I could not believe how innocent and curious we were at that time. And now, she is a doctor with a baby in her stomach! May Allah put everything at ease for her. Ganbatte!

Another August girl whom I dear is another unique person as well. This girl; she is so cheeky. Her cheekiness is what makes her one of the kind as well. She is one type of person who never fails to make other people around her smile and laugh despite the sadness and pain she might face. This type of person brightens everyone's day and I always find myself smile when I look back at all those memories with her in it. There were times when her jokes might hit the wrong button though but honestly, just the thought of her and her randomness is enough to make everyone smiles. Not to mention her videos hehehe. And thanks to her, these few days I have been spending my time watching Big Band videos more than I should (considering that I have a lot of exam papers to mark). Not that I am complaining though hehe.

Another precious soul is this sport and IT freak girl whom I have known for almost 8 years now. This girl is such a lovable person. No matter how moody she might be at times (hehe), there is no one who will not love this girl. She often says how no one loves her and how she is unloved by others but the truth is, no matter how I tell her she is loved not just by me but a lot more others, she just won't believe me. Her presence in my life means a lot to me. She might say I am lying again as I haven't been contacting her as frequently as I once used to, but honestly, she is one of the friends whom I will turn to whenever I feel sad or hurt. For me, even though someone might feel like "Oh, you only find me when you are sad or in trouble" but actually, if someone comes to you when they are having a hard time, it means that you are like a candle when everything is dark. So, for me, she is one of the candles when everything seems dark to me.

These friends are indeed a few of the beautiful souls I am blessed to know in my life. Without them, my life will not be as interesting as it is. Thank you dear friends. 

....................

Say Alhamdulillah, because you always have more than you think you have.

: 24th August 2015.

: 8.00 p.m.

: Jeli, Kelantan.

: I watched Big Bang Healing Camp 2011 video and

it made me think of a few incidents in my life

that I have tried so hard not to remember ever again.

For those who think I am a good person,

never once commit any mistakes,

and loved by others all the time, think again.

There were times when people hated and disliked me too.

And to be misunderstood is seriously depressing.

Sometimes love and loyalty means saving the ones you love from themselves.

Big girls don't cry

..........................

God has a perfect plan for everyone. 

He never does it all at once.

Just step by step 

because

He wants to teach us 

to walk by faith

and not by sight.

: 22nd November 2013.

: 11.00 p.m.

: Penang, Malaysia.

: Met two lovely friends of mine who are sweet yet strong at heart.

Even though it was a short catching up, seeing them smiles made me smile.

May God give them a strong backbone in facing every trial in life.

Because love, love is never finished.

I don't wanna lose you now, I'm looking right at the other half of me

"One of the greatest gifts of God: 

The people in our lives,
who accept,
and love,
the whole us-
not just the parts that glimmer."

[Yasmin Mogahed]

: 25th May 2013.

: 10.00 a.m.

: Penang, Malaysia.

: Goodbye dear friends; my beloved comrades. Thank you for everything.

Till we meet again, insyaAllah :)

Supermom. Supermak.

Everyday I love you [Boyzone]

Dear Mak,

Happy Birthdayyyyy and Happy Mother's Dayyyyy! :)

You know that despite what, I love you.

If you don't know, yes, I do love you.

: 13th May 2013.

: 07.21 p.m.

: Kelantan, Malaysia.

: I just can't think of anything to give except prayers and more prayers.

May Allah bless you and protect you and grant you with more strength and patience.

You are the most patient woman I have ever met.

Andante as our secret code? Really?

Will you love me, even with my dark side? 

Dear you,

No wonder I feel so tempted to look at my dashboard tonight. You wrote something, eh? Dear, I am so sorry for not being able to be there for you, lending my shoulder and keeping you company when things are rough. Distance does make things difficult but dear, prayers will reach you even if you are the end of the world. 

Hey, people will disappoint us, but not Him. You taught me that once upon a dark day. Well, if this is a nightmare, we both will definitely wish for someone to wake us up. Quickly. But dear, this is not a nightmare. This is life. You know the thing about life is? Life is unpredictable. Life is like a box of chocolates. Some may taste sweet, some may not. I guess now is the bitter part of life, then. Dear, please don't compare yourself with others. Comparison never brings happiness. You are beautiful the way you are. "No need make-up, to cover up, the way you are is enough-ough-ough~" Oppsie, too much One Direction on radio these days, eh. Ahhaha. Okay, that's not funny. 

God is the Best Planner. Indeed, He is. Yup, go with the flow then. If the tide is too strong, hang on there. Just hang on. You know I'll try my best to at least inform the safety guard on the beach. Well, I can't swim. Ahha. Others reading this will think what a stupid analogy I am trying to write here, but hey, both of us love to use stupid and weird analogy like this ehhe. You take care there too. Please, and please don't stop praying. For your own happiness, for me and for everyone we love. See you soon, God willing. And dear, all the best! :)

P/S: I haven't listened to Andante to be honest with. 

: 26th November 2012.

: 01.16 a.m.

: Malaysia.

: The movie was great. We had a great time.

But it will be more great with you around :) 

To find our way, we walked through the mist.

Dear you,

It's 1.00 a.m in the morning. My eyes are kinda heavy, my body is tired, but I decided to write this. I should have went to bed earlier, probably an hour earlier since I need to catch a train at 5 o'clock in the morning but I decided to drop a line here. Well, a line is probably just my way of saying one long crappy post, with a lot of grammatical errors. Ahha. 

Life has been rather busy these days, hasn't it? Time flies so fast, to the extent that I can't really cope things at one time. Life has been rather difficult too. Many ups and downs, they say, and well, for once, it mirrors exactly how we both feel at this moment. Oh well, you probably have gone to bed now. Or maybe, your body is but your mind isn't. Scary, isn't it? I mean, it's scary when you are tired, you switch off the light but your eyes just blankly stare into the darkness. Your mind starts to wander off to the unknown land of what ifs, why don'ts, and how shoulds and you end up with either sleeping or wide awake with troubled mind. Whatever it is, I hope in your case, it is the former, not the latter.

I might not be able to say this, but honestly, my heart aches when I see you sad. No, no. It's not that I want you to smile and laugh in front of me all the time (since we all have that moments where we are sad or tired or angry), but I pray that you will always be happy, even when you are sad. Whoaa, kinda confusing, right? But really, amidst all the things that happened, are happening or will happen, I pray to God that you will always be blessed with other things that will make your heart at peace, ease and happiness. Well, the meaning of happiness is subjective, and sometimes being misinterpreted. I once thought that happiness comes when I laugh or when I face no troubles or difficulties. But as I grow up, as I walk in this journey of life, I find that happiness can come in other form. Oh, I don't know. Maybe one day you will find the kind of happiness that I'm trying to say. Or maybe you do right now, but...oh, I don't know. 

Don't apologise if you are not smiling in front of me. We all have that moments where we can't smile from our heart. Seriously, don't force yourself if you can't. I understand. If I don't, at one point I will understand. I feel helpless, to be honest with, especially when something happened. Something which I don't have control to, or something I just can't help with. But, the least that I can do is to lend you my ear and my shoulder to lean on. So don't feel you are a burden or anything. You are not.

Oh, it's getting late now. I should sleep soon, or else, I'm going to doze off during the talk. No, no, no. I can't afford that. Oh well, I hope tomorrow will be better than today. Opps, it's already today. Ahha. How time fliesssss (when we are having fun :P ). Good night, sleep well, and may peace and blessings be with you, you, you and all of us. In case you are feeling down or out of love, remember that God loves you. And I will always love you too.

Sincerely,

Me.

...........................

Bahagia bagi kita mungkin bukan bahagia sebenar di mata Dia.

When this ends, we will miss it.

Sungguh ku ingin kau tau

To dear friends, 

No matter how many mistakes you make, or how slow you progress, you are still way ahead of everyone who isn't trying. All the best. May Allah ease everything. We all can do it.

: 22th March 2012.

: 08.18 p.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: One day, we will definitely miss these tiring and stressful days.

My other half, this song is for you.

Pray for me that I won't fall

Even though I haven't met you yet, this song is what I feel like saying to you right now.

.....................


Once, someone asked me what is the first question that I will ask my other half. 
I didn't have the question back then, but now I think I have.


"What does being a muslim mean to you?"

: 9th March 2012.

: 01.05 p.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: I am an imperfect human being.

Wash the weight of the world from your shoulder.

Janganlah kau bersedih, 'cos everything's gonna be okay

Dear you,

Everyone has those people you know? The ones who are there for them through it all. Through every single up and down of your life. They are always right there, riding the coaster with you, squeezing your hand tight on all the biggest, scariest hills telling you, “You’ll be okay, you’ll make it through, you can do this.” You know that they will never hop off the coaster at a stopping point to find an easier ride; they will stick with you because they want to. You trust these people immensely and they trust you too. These people, they complete you, they bring the biggest smile to your face and make your life worth living. You know that they will always be there for you, no matter what, twenty-four hours a day, seven days a week, and all three hundred sixty-five days of the year. You spend each day trying to think of some way, any way, to repay them, to help them understand what they have done for you, but always come up short. You simply tell them thank you, hoping that will be enough, but apologizing when you realize it isn’t. They, though, find it enough for you to be happy and knowing that your coaster has slowed down for now. And as your coaster slowly picks up the pace once again, you know these people are still there, ready to support you and squeeze your hand when you, once more, find yourself riding it out on those hills. And even if, over time, you find yourself apart from these people, you are never truly apart, maybe by the standard definition, but truly you aren’t. Near or far, far or near, these are the people that will always love you and they’ll never leave you.

Dear you, I just want you to know, that you are one of those people. Thank you for being one of those people. I might not be able to do the same, but I hope, to you, I am one of those people too. Whatever brings you down, whatever makes you cry, whatever makes you hurt, I promise you, I will be there for you to at least lend my shoulder and shed your tears. If I can't be there physically, my prayers will. In case I haven't tell you this, remember, pain ends, but my love and support will never end. May you have all the happiness you deserve. And may God will always shower upon you with goodness and peace.

Sincerely,
Me.

"Everything will be okay in the end.

If it's not okay, it's not the end."

....................

P/S: I received a bowl of love from a sweet girl yesterday. Thank you so much. May Allah bless you.
To you who gave me the song, thanks. It is indeed one of my favourite songs. Oh, it brings back memories.
And, to you who accompanied me, thank you dear. One day we'll drink guava juice together, ok?

: 1st March 2012.

: 11.42 p.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: Oh Lord, please put everything at ease.
And please, oh Lord, I humbly pray You to shower upon everyone that I love
with goodness and peace, herein and hereafter.

Mismatched eyes, you are getting old now.

You're my sunshine after the rain

Dear mismatched eyes,  

You give really poor fan service. You’re blunt and honest to the point that it seems as though you’re being really mean to your fans. You insult others for smiling too much to the fans. You don’t like hugs and you scold your fans who think you are handsome. What is wrong with you?! Then again, what is wrong with me?! I actually feel drawn towards you even though you make no effort to win over fans. Urgh. I need to get away from you. Real fast. Or else...

By the way, I forgot to tell you this. Happy birthday, you blunt, snarky mismatched eyes. You seem to enjoy yourself too much, thinking that no matter what I will continue loving you. Oh, you are wrong. I have my own life, why on earth would I spend my time watching you? And how many times have I told you that you are just soooo delusional. And ignorant. Heh. Happy birthday and stay away from my life! 

And oh, one more thing. Please stop buying all those expensive watches. It's bad for the economy. And my health. Believe me, it is. Urgh, from Glam Rock to Audemars Piguet. I know it's your money, but stop it. I warn you!

"There is no remedy for love but to love more."

No, no, no. You are definitely not my sunshine.

You're just my other definition of undefined storm.

: 18th February 2012.

: 00.10 a.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: Time is ticking. Now look at how I've just spent my time.
I need to do my work! Stop distracting me, mismatched eyes.
Stay away from me, stay away! Or should I just close all the tabs about you?

Eight winters ago.

If a red balloon flies in the sky, my heart remembers beautiful memories

"Everything has a beginning and we started with a hug." 

"Memories are what warm you up from the inside,

but they are also what tear you apart."

: 26th December 2011.

: 00.37 a.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: Eight years of happiness, sorrow and love.
There's no use in telling anyone, because they won't understand.
Happy 8th anniversary. Just be strong, five of you. And me.

Asu wa kuru kara.

When the rain falls, I'll be the umbrella that covers you

When the wind blows, I'll be the wall that shields you

And however deep the dark of night,

Tomorrow will surely come

I want to tell only you

That tomorrow will surely come

..............

You have remained the child, always joking around and cheering everyone up with your personality, full of humility, looking at life positively, full of opportunities and no regrets.

You have remained the strong man, living through so many obstacles, so many troubles, but have continued to live with passion in everything you do, putting on the brightest, fatal smile and making your loud, obnoxious laugh heard in the darkest of times.

Happy birthday, dear cute dolphin boy.

: 15th December 2011.

: 02.50 a.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: Hanataba? Habatana? Tanabata?
Oh, need to watch that again.

Knock.

Because you make me believe in myself 

Dear Miss Aiskrim,

Happy Birthday!

Keep that smile of yours everyday.

Be strong, just the way you are now.

Thanks for everything.

May Allah bless you always.

P/S: Let's have one day off, just you and me, digging over a bowl of ice cream. 

: 13th October 2011.

: 00.13 a.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: A warm party for a warm-hearted person.

Back at one.

And who do you think you are

Running 'round leaving scars

Happy Eid Mubarak!


P/S: Oh, I almost forgot. Today is my friend's wedding day. May everything goes well, insyaAllah. 
Be a good spouse and may Allah bless your marriage.

: 3rd September 2011.

: 4 Syawal 1432H.

: 01.04 a.m.

: Malaysia.

: Finally back at home, after almost one week at my mom's hometown.
It's been a great holiday, despite all the heat, traffic congestion and bitter experiences all the way through.

May you have a very good time celebrating this Eid Mubarak, dear friends.
Oh yeah, this time, I plaited almost 50 ketupat sate on my own. Yeahhhh~ Ehhe.
By the way, where have you been dear Miss Kang? Hope you're doing fine.

Expresso Double Shot.

This little cafe is waiting for you.

Taken from: www.bigbangupdates.com

Dear Mr Gee-D, 
I just love your yellow bag and you of course.

: 10th August 2011.
: 10 Ramadhan 1432H.

: 03.02 p.m.

: Malaysia.

: Happy Birthday to my friends; Miss Si Manis Gadis (I hope you like the picture ehhe) 

and Miss Penggemar One Piece (I don't know whether you still read it especially during this exam time). 

Have a great day my dear friends and may Allah bless both of you.

Miss you lots, take a good care of yourselves and happy fasting! xxx

Petai nanang.

"A friend hears the song in my heart and sings it to me when my memory fails."

taken from: innocenthee.tumblr.com

: 21st July 2011.

: 04.00 a.m.

: Malaysia.

: I've eaten the petai that three of us took from the tree (using our own hands and that heavy galah). 

Even though we only spent three days and two nights together, 

the memories that we created together will always remain in my heart. 

Thank you for everything. I'm really grateful having you two in my life. 

I can't wait to watch the videos that we took on our way to the bus station. Hot summer! :P