Friday, 31 October 2014

A disturbing read.

The truth is you're, you're gone.


A woman who is a victim of domestic violence called 911 for help but was unable to directly discuss of what was happening to her so she used a code-like conversation by starting to order a pizza. 
Fortunately, the dispatcher did not take her call lightly, instead he became intuitive and analyzed her situation very carefully. 
Read the transcript of the conversation between the victim and the dispatcher and noticed how well their thoughts were connected to each other. 

"911, where is your emergency?" 
"123 Main St." 
"Ok, what's going on there?" 
"I'd like to order a pizza for delivery." (oh great, another prank call). 
"Ma'am, you've reached 911" 
"Yeah, I know. Can I have a large with half pepperoni, half mushroom and peppers?" 
"Ummm…. I'm sorry, you know you've called 911 right?" 
"Yeah, do you know how long it will be?" 
"Ok, Ma'am, is everything ok over there? do you have an emergency?" 
"Yes, I do." 
"..And you can't talk about it because there's someone in the room with you?" (moment of realization) 
"Yes, that's correct. Do you know how long it will be?" 
"I have an officer about a mile from your location. Are there any weapons in your house?" 
"Nope." 
"Can you stay on the phone with me?" 
"Nope. See you soon, thanks"


According to the dispatcher, he checked the history of the address given by the lady and found out that there were records of multiple domestic violence from the previous calls. 
Finally, the officer arrived at the house and immediately saw the lady in bad shape with her drunk boyfriend. Her partner was arrested for beating her. 
The dispatcher said that she was intelligent to pull that kind of trick and that emergency call is the most memorable one for him. 

Source: Story shared from Reddit. 

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I seldom read articles liked by my friends on Facebook, however, the above article caught my eyes. Domestic violence may perceived as something common and not-so-shocking nowadays, however, the above case shows something more than any other ordinary domestic violence case. If you read carefully to the conversation, you might think, "Oh, she's so clever to be able to 'code' her emergency situation and get help from her code-like conversation."
However, for me, as I read it, I find that it is disturbing to see that how she is trying so hard to reach out for help but she just couldn't say it out loud. She was probably in pain and misery for quite some time, who knows, maybe one year, two years or even ten years? And throughout those years, how many times she had probably tried her best to reach out for help but no one, no one was able to decipher the code that she was giving, thinking that she was probably just engaging in a normal, ordinary conversation. Thinking that she was probably an ordinary woman with ordinary life. 
But the truth is, she was not an ordinary woman leading an ordinary life. She was stuck in a hell-worse situation ever (pardon me for my language, I just can't stop myself from using it in this case) and she couldn't get herself out from it without the help from others. She was one of those people who even though in suffering, chose to wait and desperately hoped that one day, other people would notice and lend her their hands.This is just one case, how about other people who are just like her? Where are they? How long have they been waiting for us to notice?
This is in fact so disturbing to me. I just can't help feeling helpless and angry reading cases like this. It pains me to see how people are tortured because of the wrong relationship they are in. Domestic violence is disturbing. How can people stand through it because of love? If someone you love hurts you, it is not love. And if you love someone, you do not hurt that person. 
Because to me, to love is to protect. That includes protecting the ones you love from your own evil.




: 31st October 2014.
: 2.10 p.m.
: Jeli, Kelantan.
: The poem of the day: I Got Flowers Today.

Wednesday, 29 October 2014

So what is your verse?

Born to die [Lana Del Rey]




[Mr Keating, Dead Poets Society]


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This week, even though there was no Sunday blues (read: Awal Muharram holiday), I personally felt that entering classes was a bit more daunting than I expected it to be. Oh well, I think I sort of forgot the saying; 'expect the unexpected', especially when it is related to teaching. 
It might be the unexpected temperature of the day too as it was getting way hotter even as early as 11.00 a.m. And it might be the stress and pressure for the upcoming SPM examination. Or it might also be the longing for holidays that I constantly have every single day in my teaching life. Or it might be all of those.
Oh, what an exhausting and mentally drained week. One more day to go.

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Self Talk for Decreasing Anger:

  1. As long as I keep my cool, I am in control of myself.
  2. My anger is a signal. It is time to talk to myself and relax.
  3. Nothing says I have to be competent and strong all the time. It's okay to feel unsure or confused.
  4. If people criticise me, I can survive that. Nothing says I have to be perfect.
  5. It's impossible to control other people and situations. The only thing I can control is myself and how I express my feelings.
  6. It's okay to be uncertain and insecure sometimes. I don't need to be in control of everything and everybody.
  7. If the person wants to go off the wall, that's their thing. I don't need to respond to their anger or feel threatened.
  8. It's nice to have people's love and approval, but even without it, I can still accept and like myself.
  9. People are going to act the way they want to, not the way I want them to.
  10. I feel angry, that must mean 'I have been hurt, scared or have some other threatening feelings underneath the anger.'



: 29th October 2014.
: 9.50 p.m.
: Jeli, Kelantan.
: I am getting a bit sensitive these days. I don't know why.

Tuesday, 28 October 2014

Take me to your loving arms.

Maybe we found love right where we are



“When trouble strikes, head to the library. You will either be able to solve the problem, or simply have something to read as the world crashes down around you.” 
- Lemony Snicket

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“Are you ready?" Klaus asked finally.
"No," Sunny answered.
"Me neither," Violet said, "but if we wait until we're ready we'll be waiting for the rest of our lives, Let's go.”  
― Lemony Snicket, The Ersatz Elevator

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When my hair's all but gone and my memory fades
And the crowds don't remember my name
When my hands don't play the strings the same way
I know you will still love me the same 
'Cause honey your soul could never grow old, it's evergreen
And, baby, your smile's forever in my mind and memory
I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe it's all part of a plan
Well, I'll just keep on making the same mistakes
Hoping that you'll understand

-Ed Sheeran, Thinking Out Loud
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: 28th October 2014.
: 11.20 p.m.
: Jeli, Kelantan.
: I am officially a library teacher now yeaaahhhh.
And thanks to my two friends who are also library teachers,
whatsapping with them makes me feel better and more relaxed.

Saturday, 18 October 2014

Intriguingly addictive.

Welcome to the Hotel California, such a lovely place



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There was something extremely wrong with my phone and the line, of course. I seriously in need of a new handphone. A new well-functioned handphone. Is there anyone who is willing enough to buy me one?

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Here I am again; writing and reading stories online. Oh, reading is sooooo intriguingly addictive. Reading is my drug. Errr...drug maybe a little bit too extreme. What I really mean is; reading is my therapy. He he he he.




: 18th October 2014.
: 12.00 p.m.
: Jeli, Kelantan.
: My housemate's students are way beyond cute.
I mean, the way they behave with teachers around.

Tuesday, 14 October 2014

If you ask me, I still have him in my heart.

Because I miss you [Jung Yonghwa]



Hey boy.
You got me at that stare.


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Fill your bowl to the brim,
And it will spill. 
Keep sharpening your knife, 
And it will blunt.

Chase after money and security,
And your heart will never unclench.
Care about people’s approval, 
And you will be their prisoner.

Do your work, then step back.
The only path to serenity.

- Tao Te Ching

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: 14th October 2014.
: 10.00 p.m.
: Jeli, Kelantan.
: I have been watching my mismatched eyes again.
I just noticed how he looked so young and unsure about everything years ago.
The mismatched eyes that I know now is nowhere near that anymore.
See how he looked so professional hugging girls? Can you hug me too? *gedik betul

Sunday, 12 October 2014

Rude.

November Rain [David Garrett]



My heart is so small
it’s almost invisible.
How can You place
such big sorrows in it?

“Look,” He answered,
“your eyes are even smaller,
yet they behold the world.

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But time is like the ocean,
you can only hold a little in your hands.

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Hey you.
Where do you think you are going? 
Running away from all this mess?
If yes, please take me too.
Pretty please.



: 12th October 2014.
: 10.59 p.m.
: Jeli, Kelantan.
: One teacher cried. And a few more. In their hearts.
And here I am, suddenly thinking of the old times.
How is my mismatched eyes, I wonder. I hope you are doing fine.

Monday, 6 October 2014

How many countries are there?

La Vida Sin Amor





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I envy those who found love at first sight. You know. It's like they met each other coincidently, let's say in a cafe, and they struck a conversation and kept in touch and tadaaaaaa~ after some time, despite all odds, they realised they fall in love with each other. Oh my. It is soooo enviable. 
I guess, love is indeed a mystery. What more in the manner of falling in love.


: 6th September 2014.
: 09.00 p.m.
: Jeli, Kelantan.
: All of the sudden, I wonder how many countries are there in this world?
What makes them independent? And what languages they use?