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I am human. 

The one who makes mistakes. 

The one who keeps forgetting. 

The one who always imperfect. 

I am only human.

I just hate the present me. 

I really want me to be like what I was before. 

I know I am still the same person in certain aspects, but no matter what you say, I just don't like the present me. 

The person who is typing this. 

I just don't like who I am now. 

I want to be who I was, but I just couldn't. 

I have changed. 

And I will never stop changing.

Please, I don't want to change so much until I don't know who I am. 

I don't want to completely forget who I am. 

I don't want that day to come. 

Please, don't ever let go of my hands. 

Because, if you do, I will lose my own self.

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The promise.

I will always remember the promise that we made on that day.
God willing, I will never ever forget it.
Because of that promise, no matter how much I cry, no matter how loud I scream, no matter how often I fall, I will always stand up and move forward.
Because of that promise, I know that no matter how awful I am, I know you will always be there for me.
Support me, and reach me in your very own ways.
That's why, because of that promise, I will endure.
So, please, don't ever stop praying for me.
I might look tough on the surface, but definitely not in the inside.
I am only human.

: 26th April 2010.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: Please pray for me. 

Sacrifice.

There are many types of sacrifice in this world. Whatever it is, sacrifice requires a lot of courage, strong will and patience. Without all of these, one cannot fully sacrifice oneself for anything or everything. Hehe, actually I've been watching an anime series entitled 'Code Geass Lelouch of the Rebellion' and a Japanese drama entitled 'Shotgun Marriage', erm yup, two at a time, erm,  recently. Both touch a lot on sacrifice. Yeah, sacrifice is not easy. But, if you're willing to sacrifice anything for the one that you loved, no matter how pain it is,  it will eventually become a sweet pain in the end. That's the beauty of sacrifice. But, first, please make sure what you sacrifice for is worthy enough. Don't simply sacrifice over trivial and stupid things, it's just not worth it. Believe me, it's not.

Code Geass Lelouch of the Rebellion.
This episode made me cry so hard. Why did Lelouch has to suffer all by himself? Wuuu~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l5MVAXlIO7k&feature=related

'Shotgun Marriage' starring Yutaka Takenouchi and Kyoko Hirosue. 

All these things revolving sacrifice make me ponder on this one thing. Sungguh hebat kan pengorbanan Nabi Ibrahim dan Nabi Ismail? 

: 16th April 2010.
: 06.07 a.m.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: I know I shouldn't watch any of these because I have an assignment to complete, but never mind. 
Too preoccupied with assignment is not good for my brain isn't it? I need to rest and relax for a while. 
By the way, I've actually finished watching these two series long before,
but since it's an assignment period, I ended up watching all those old series back. Hahaha.

Self-reboot!

Oh no, my whole system is breaking down. Yes, my whole system. From the brain cells to the nerve system until the joints and muscles. They are all almost in the stage of not functioning. Even my heart is becoming numb and the state of my spirit is pending. Oh God, please save me. I tried hard to sort out my system errors and I've been defragmenting the whole system just now. Maintenance takes quite a long time I'm afraid. Oh, what a weak self-system I have. I can't do nothing as the new me isn't sold anywhere else. I can just repair my system and find a better software to keep it functioning well. My brain cannot function well and my muscles just won't move. And it's all because of that incurable virus which most of us known as 'L.A.Z.Y'. Arghhh! I need to reboot myself! Please, let my system function before it's too late. 

I'm getting sleepier minute by minute. Oh, don't hibernate yet. Please. 

Oh my, I need to restart my system now.

"Ketahuilah di dalam jasad itu ada segumpal darah, sekiranya ia baik maka baiklah seluruh jasad, sekiranya ia buruk, maka buruklah seluruh jasad, ketahuilah bahawa ia adalah Qalb (hati)” [Hadith Riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim.]

Duhai diri, bangkitlah! Bangkitlah dari lenamu. Tidakkah kau sedar, perjuanganmu masih panjang. Ayuh, bangun!

: 12th April 2010.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: In the name of God, let us begin! Oh dear self, let's get started! 

Don't let time pass by doing nothing. You see, it won't come back.

Just nice.

"Treat everyone with kindness, even those who are rude to you --not because they are nice, but because you are."

"Jangan engkau meremehkan kebaikan sekecil apa pun, walau sekadar berwajah manis buat saudaramu." [Maksud Hadis]

: 9th April 2010.

: Plymouth, U.K

: Nice! I suddenly remembered about a few songs from back then. 

Even they're so like 'yesterdays' but hey, they're nice songs! 

Try listening to this song ( I just love the last two sentences) and also this, they're nice! 

Oh, not to forget this one. Hehe.

Love is in the air~

Really, love is in the air~

Ah, I just love it!

Really2 love it!

So cute isn't it?

Oh, I just love it!

: 5th April 2010.

: Plymouth, U.K.

: That cheese cake was so nice. I couldn't stop myself from eating it. But alas, I must! It's not mine. It's hers. Hehehe. But anyway, thanks so much for it. I really2 love it! 

The trip.

Six days travelling was indeed tiring but yet a wonderful journey for me and my friends.
Engaging with different people with different attitude;
those with kindness and those with rudeness,
encountering new language, new cultures and new places,
getting lost and confused over directions,
being taken advantage on and being helped by,
we definitely learnt a lot from this trip.
Thank God everything went on smoothly.

Hikmah kembara. Berjalan, belajar dan mentafsir. Benarlah kata mereka, jauh perjalanan luas pandangan. 

: 3rd April 2010.

: Plymouth, U.K. (finally)

: Hollywood Tower in Disneyland Paris was awesome! I was scared to death at that time. Really scared.